Here is a poem that i have been writing for someone that was very special to me -
My life, My love, but most important my best friend has left me
Cant stop thinking
cant stop wondering what if.
why didn't it work?
was it something i did?
something i said?
we'll never know!
i lost him for good and i want him back in my life for good!
it's not the same.
can't seem to be as happy as i use to be.
he was my smile, my life and most important my BEST FRIEND!
now I'm just simple Amanda.
i use to be happy Amanda.
things changed and i can't seem to get through it easy.
he was my 1st love and always will be!
nothing can ever change that.
he was the light to my day.
not once did anyone see me not smile around you.
i cared for you more then i did my own life.
i know i lost you forever
but all i want you to know is that i will NEVER forget you
and i will always care and love you and i just want you back in my life.
i cant seem to live everyday like the way i use to.
its not the same.
i don't smile as much.
i cry all the time..
and now you have left me !!
so why cant i get over you and be happy?
because you cant get over someone you really and truly love.
its not a crush its the real thing!
all i can think is what if.
I'm just in love.
i miss you badly.
seems like my hearts bleeding!
I just cant take the pain.
i just want my best friend back!
i love you more than anything!
i try everyday to get through this and it just keeps getting harder. your always on my mind! what can i do?
your all i think about and dream about!
you were my 1st and i wanted you to be my last!!
but now that's over and done with! your out of my life completely! and honestly i don't know what to do with myself.
when i see you around and you don't even know it i just glance at you and remember how it use to be!
when i hear certain songs on the radio it reminds me of us and how we were, talking on the phone.
and if i had one wish and just ONE WISH it would be to have you back in my life forever! why just one wish..because if i had you back in my life ill be happy and won't need any other wishes.
ill have everything i need to make me happy!
you were my heart, my life and most important my best friend!
I just want you back in my life and us to be happy again.
I love you
