THE Texas Bitch's blog: "Just a little this a little that..."

Just an FYI .....I am still alive im just in the hospital . They admitted me this morning and I dont know how long ill be here. I do have my laptop obviously so ill let y'all know whats goin on .... Thanks for the get wells n love sent from whomever knew! Love y'all! Mel

You don't know me... You might think you do, but You don't know me... I'm much deeper than you've delved, Than anyone ever has... You don't know so many things, And yet you think you do... If you took the time, you'd see That there are many more layers to me, That the spirit is deep and true. This soul of mine hides so much inside Because it doesn't trust anymore, not even you. If you could have taken the time, you might have seen, But you didn't, so you don't know me And I guess you never will...

To all of my Fubar friends , family, fans and those I am fans of...Happy New Year...I know some of you are just aquaintances but Im glad u crossed my path. And to the ones Ive gotten so close to thank you ..thank you for accepting me faults and all ..I hope 2008 starts off wonderful for each of you and only gets better each day of the year. Its easy to wish for all of you to get what u desire and I hope u do but more than that I hope each of u get the things u need in 2008 to make your lives completely the best. So as 2007 comes to a close let me say Thank you , bless you and I love you. I cant wait to see where 2008 carries us! Much love Melinda AKA Texas Bitch

To My Online Friends: As the holidays approach, my heartfelt appreciation goes out to all of you who have taken the time and trouble to send me "forwards" over the past 12 months. Thank you for making me feel safe, secure, blessed, and wealthy. Extra thanks to whoever sent me the one about rat crap in the glue on envelopes 'cause I now have to go get a wet towel every time I need to seal an envelope. Also, I scrub the top of every can I open for the same reason. Because of your concern I no longer drink Coca Cola because it can remove toilet stains. I no longer drink Pepsi or Dr. Pepper since the people who make these products are atheists who refuse to put "Under God" on their cans. I no longer use Saran wrap in the microwave because it causes cancer. I no longer check the coin return on pay phones because I could be pricked with a needle infected with AIDS. I no longer use cancer-causing deodorants even though I smell like a water buffalo on a hot day. I no longer go to shopping malls because someone might drug me with a perfume sample and rob me. I no longer receive packages from nor send packages by UPS or FedEx since they are actually Al Qaeda in disguise. I no longer answer the phone because someone will ask me to dial a number for which I will get a phone bill with calls to Jamaica, Uganda, Singapore, and Uzbekistan. I no longer eat KFC because their "chickens" are actually horrible mutant freaks with no eyes or feathers. I no longer have any sneakers -- but that will change once I receive my free replacement pair from Nike. I no longer have to buy expensive cookies from Neiman Marcus since I now have their recipe. I no longer worry about my soul because at last count I have 363,214 angels looking out for me. Thanks to you, I have learned that God only answers my prayers if I forward an e-mail to seven of my friends and make a wish within five minutes. I no longer have any savings because I gave it to a sick girl who is about to die in the hospital (for the 1,387,258th time) I no longer have any money at all - but that will change once I receive the $15,000 that Microsoft and AOL are sending me for participating in their special email program. Yes, I want to thank you so much for looking out for me that I will now return the favor! If you don't send this e-mail to at least 144,000 people in the next 7 minutes, a large pigeon with a wicked case of diarrhea will land on your head at 5:00 PM (CDT) this afternoon. I know this will occur because it actually happened to a friend of my next-door neighbor's ex-mother-in-law's second husband's cousin's beautician. Happy Holidays in Advance!!

I will always be there for you, and I hope you will be there for me too, for our friendship can never be broken, I will remain loyal through all the good and the bad, and in the end we will be glad, because without you I am nothing, as you are nothing without me, we fill the space a lover couldn't fill, for we hold each others secrets that we would never spill, and the day you're gone, part of me goes too, because I wouldn't want to be here with out you, Best friends forever you and me, nothing could ever change that; it's destiny! If any of you know me you know my best friend in this entire world is Misty "THE Oklahoma Bitch" well right now she is in a hospital in OKC going through numerous tests. They think there are major issues with her kidneys and bladder . Honestly I cant say more than that because I dont know anymore yet. Its killing me to be here thinking about her and not be there holding her hand. But with my grandmother I cant up and leave as bad as I want to. Just remember this week as Thanksgiving is upon us to say a little prayer for her and give thanks to the ones in your life who mean the most to you and even the ones who have just touched you in some way in some point in your life. I dont know where I would be with out Misty and other friends who have hold me on the edge so I never fell off. I also wanna say thanks and give thanks to those of you here who take the time to say a few words or send a small smile because on days like today those things make my world a little brighter and it makes a big difference. ~*~HUGS N KISSES~*~ & Thank you again . Mel

the upper deck Mila gazed out over the river. She knew when she bought the house that this spot would be perfect for afternoon musings. With the opposite bank far enough away to ensure privacy, the heavy rail along the edge of the deck stopped any clear view from any who might happen by in a boat. She shrugged the morning gown from her shoulders, her body still beautiful with its mature accoutrements. Softer curves, delicious little belly, more settled breasts. Her nipples puckered as the breeze from the river kissed them. Stretching out on the lounge, she let the sun warm her skin. Sighing with contentment, she let herself totally relax for the first time in months. Naked, sun-warmed and relaxed, she reveled in the midday summer. Her hands roamed over her warm skin, her body responding to her touch. She opened her legs, gently fingering her bud, spreading moisture over her lips. She drew her knees up and let her legs fall all the way open, her wet womanhood exposed to the air and heat of the sun. She could feel her juice as it tickled down her slit. She gave a deep moan and moved her fingertips over the slit and the wetness smeared her lips and the curled black hairs. Picturing Alex’s tongue swirling over her, his silky hair brushing the inside of her thighs, she found herself spinning closer to orgasm. She slid three fingers in, stoking herself harder, driving them in over and over again as she drenched her hand. Her body spasmed and she clenched involuntarily. She shuddered hard and came again. Finally the shudders passed and she fell back on the lounger, exhausted. Drifting in and out in the afternoon sun, Mila felt a tongue on her, moving back and forth across her still-hard bud. Moaning, she reached down, running her fingers through her husband’s long thick hair. She opened her legs further still and pulled his head toward her wetness. As her third orgasm of the afternoon gripped her, Mila had a clear understanding of just how wonderful life can be.

Hey guys I didnt talk to anyone last night I just was over the edge. after the whole day with the hospital fiasco and then going yesterday to clean all the blood out of the carpet I was spent. I went back over today and worked on the carpet some more and did her laundry she was wearing. I cried doin both just all that blood from my little bitty grandma was overwhelming. THe Doctors were going to let het go home today BUT he blood count is to low so they are doing a blood transfusion this afternoon to see if they can get tham back up. She will be on a day to day basis at the hospital. So she could be home tomorrow or in the hospital indefinately we will just have to wait n see. I just wanted to update everyone. Thank you to the few who actually took the time to read this and the one before and sent hugsn well wishes, You have no idea how appreciated it was IT IS! Much love Mel

If anyone has noticed Ive been scarce yesterday and today..well let me fill ya in on whats goin on..As anyone who knows me knows I take care of my grandmother everyday. I get the kids off to school and then I head over to her house to cook n clean and do whatever she needs done. Well yesterday My mom went with me we got to grams about 8;30 am I unlocked the door n went in as i walked in I saw my grandma on the den floor in pools of blood. She was walking to the kitchen from her bedroom lost conciousness and fell. When she fell she hit her head on the console TV and ripped the skin off of her left arm. Now you have to understand my grandma is 4ft 8 she weighs 77 lbs and she is 95 years old. her skin is like paper the slightest bump or touch bruises or can rip her open. Well we called 911 and got her to the hospital then the flippin ER wouldnt let anyone go back with her and she was crying and asking for my mom or I . I got PISSEDDDD they called security on me lol BUT i got my mom back there with her. so we sat in the ER from a lil b4 9 am til 4pm yesterday. when they FINALLY got her up to her room because they admitted her. well the tech who was attempting to move her was a flippin IDIOT...as they were tryin to move her from the er gurny to the hospital bed the one IDIOT got on the er gurny and when she did she put her knee with all of her weight on my grandmas hand. My grandma was screaming and crying it ripped her hand open. you could actually see the bones in her hand. THEN the fruit loops put a derma seal over it n walked out. I went and looked and she was bleeding perfusly I told the tech lady or CNA whatever she was n her respoonse was Ill get a towel to wrap around it! WHAT IN THE HELL?? I told h er she was ridiculous and to call the charge nurse. I was PISSED!!!!!! THey called the charge nurse and supervisor who were in total shock. they had to do extensive work on her hand whick is now bruised and ripped open. then to top it all off the flippin idiot CNA never once was remorseful or apologectic! We have filed a complaint with the hospital and will do what is necessary for her to be repremanded. Had she been remorseful maybe i wouldnt be so pissed off. Today I went back to grandmas and began cleaning all the blood off the walls and put of the carpet. She was a bit better today but honestly I dont know how long she has the valve in her heart that pumps blood out is 75% or more blocked and @ her age there isnt anything that can be done all we can do is make her comfortable. My parents are building on a toom for her @ their house so she wont have to be alone anymore. She just cant be. I just wanted to fill everyone in and if ya can keep her and my family in your prayers. Thank you! ~*~HUGS N KISSES~*~ Mel

I dont know if anyone else has days like Ive had but you feel like a yo-yo yanked back n forth and passed fron one person to another. This person has to have this to make them happy that person has to have that to make them happy. THEN you are trying to do what u feel is the best thing to do to make you and ur kids happy. and of course there is always someone on the sidelines instead of cheering you on they are whining and bitching.. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Last time i looked i was 35 years old I do think I know what i need to do to make MY LIFE the way I need it and want it to be. .I dont know when you think you got the crown to rule my world but let me tell ya Take it back to Burger KIng thats all its worth. I RULE MY WORLD. and when u push n push n push to get me where you want me to be all you are doing is pushing me further than u ever wanted me to be.. quit thinkin everything in the fucking world is about you quit thinking every lil snag is about you ..realize there are others in my life i HAVE TO take care of..IVe stated Ive asked well this time Im telling... open your damn eyes and see there are so many other factors besides ur jealosuy insecurities and what the fuck ever else.. Im done Im sick of feeling like i have to be on egg shells to comply to you. Once I could say you were my friend now I cant say that @ all. I cant say much of anything except thank you for the things you have done in the past and Im sorry you couldnt listen and see what I needed you to because u have blinders on seeing only what you want to. when and or if you can get your shit straight Ill be here Ill always be a friend..but 1st n foremost do what u need to do in your life to make it right before u try stepping into mine and hurting anyone.