PrettyToy712's blog: "just a box of stuffs..."

so, since a couple of people have commented on my music player on my fubar page, I thought I'd share one of my little mixes with everyone here. I occasionally make mixes still (for thos of you who didn't read my profile, I used to have a radio show in Boulder and also DJ'd in a club) so...this is a short little mega-mix...meaning I use only small portions of songs...only a couple of minutes or so before I transition into the next track. I started rushing towards the end of the mix, so I don't think this one turned out as good as it could have, but I still really like the song selection and MOST of the transitions in this one. Hopefully you'll enjoy it too!

edit: okay...so apparently I can't embed the media player in this blog...so you'll have to go to this page to listen to it...my apologies :( http://www.mixcloud.com/DJ712/synthpopfuturepop-megamix-v20/

so...I was just sitting here listening to one of my favorite bands...because tomorrow their last CD ever is going to be released...sad day! :( so I thought I'd post some of my favorite lines from their songs...and you should reply with some lyrics from your favorite songs! :) it'll be fun!

"I can't stay over you.
It seems we drive forever but can never get away from here,
just one more try.
I'm guessing you are over me, I guess it's bravery."

"I'm tasting nothing but 4 words, "please don't leave me"."

"Well they're just thoughts so go ahead and speak.
So pick out what you like and call me when you're on the way.
You can spend the night and hope to sleep all day.
For me its just another week, twenty eight was once how I dreamed.
And with your scent on my face I can leave and have you for days."

"I still can't see you.
The summer came and we got lost, all of us.
You are nothing with out her.
I still wont remember your face,
the features mix too well with this alcohol.
So we cover ourselves in your fear,
and stay to watch that moon disappear under these lights.
This city, this city's screaming at me.
And as you breathe the words I better go.
The sun is up and taking back all the shadows that covered this ground,
and our feet, like a blanket of coal."

"Well circle around and get yourself a better look,
a better memory.
And you fall down, you do.
We'll file down these streets
lined with fools and luxury.
We've sinned our best
But nobody looked, yeah just

Love me, love me
this is how I'm forced to live,
but I don't wanna live like that.
I don't wanna live knowing second words."

"I'm all yours because I hate this house
and how sad it makes you in the morning,
the morning that I'm hoping will never come.
I just want to watch this sky and some,
stars are out I do believe.
And this winter came, I think we made it through the freeze."

"Anything but silence, anything you say
will stay in my head for days and days.
But I'm sorry we couldn't make it back this evening.
But I'm still hoping.
We have to move or so it seems.
I guess the hospitals are near 'cause I can hear those screams,
and you breathing over me.
Well ha ha, ha, I tricked you once again 'cause you are nothing."

"Standing so cold in photography, their faces knew,
and clearly showed every word that nothing comes true.
I'm here stuck in this town no more."

"Minutes call for longer,
finger prints show loss of blood,
but being perfect was always hard, wasn't it?
Wasn't it? Wasn't it to you?
The motivation is hard to find
the screams were heard but never cried,
so tell me how do you go through?
tell me what brings us to this place.
They will not be afraid,
only two know how sad this gets
the stage is set for them both,
and on the bathroom floor, glass ready,
there's no turning back now."

"'Cause I stole your soul
You said I'd never be able
But oh, the whole world is still on my string"

"So I've been sleeping with this silence in my mind
And all I see scares me
And no one knows it, but she, she saved me

So I've been sleeping with this silence in my brain
I wake up here everyday in this god damn place
I won't wait here anymore"

"It's still not quite the way it was
But you promised me this is love
So stay and watch the hospital
That's just across the street
From your apartment balcony
I'll never ever leave there
I'll never leave"

"Oh, no one is watching now
Sing like you just might drown
But always come back home
'Cause I never got to see you once more, no
I guess that's all I wanted
Yeah, I guess that's all I needed

Now look, we've made a fool out of love
When all we want is to be enough
When all we want is to feel enough"

"Place me on your scene and I'll take
Everything that you ever said to me
No, it wasn't just words
(No, it wasn't just words)
But day after day after day
I call that fate"

"Liar, liar
You never called.
But I'll be just fine, yeah I'm fine,
Sleep well."

"This never made much sense to me
So I sleep alone.
Cause you are the same as I always remembered,
I'll always remember."

"It was just, just a god damn mistake.
Stay at home,
Because you're way to good at faking.
Love is too much,
I'll be just fine here.
Stay at home,
Because it's always the same.
Darling you fucked up."

"I guess they all knew.
Somebody draw the sun.
Those states made me distant.
Tell me it's alright. You tell me it's better.

Well I can't believe you're still in the valley,
Wasting away.
I guess they got the best of me,
And got your all.
But I'll be just fine here."

"Live it up, live it up
Or just come back home
Yeah, cause these city lights
Are too much for you alone
But San Francisco sounds quite lovely
And so I'll just wait for your call
I promise, I promise I'm holy, lonely"

"So stay awake and I'll stay
I try and go, but your game
It waits for me and you, love"

"So cover up for the rain
You see in way too much safety
Cause I don't stand a chance for
Any longer than you do, my friend
Cause we sure know best
Now that you're gone"

"But San Francisco still sounds lovely
Cause he swears he still loves you
He still loves you
He called, lonely"

"You will never waste my time, no, no
You will never waste my time, 'cause...

Well, she locks all the doors and turns, says,
"We will always be safe here in this bed
All I see scares me, and no one waits forever."

So come closer, baby
I want to see what you're made of, see what you're made of
'Cause this isn't all we could be
You're not the same, and I'm, I'm not the same and...

No one could ever wait for you
And no one, yeah, no one could ever wait for you
I'll wait for you, love

But you are the never ending sleep
That I love to treat with this medicine
I get from my, my closer friend
But all I see..."

"Now I see.
Don't you say that I've gone crazy.
Because I haven't gone crazy yet.
I just lost my mind,
But I still got you.

Stay up late so you're sure.
Sure that I wont stray too far,
But surely that got too hard.
Oh but,
Love is not for me,
I promise
Love is not for me
One more day, just one more.

I'd Stay If I ever could,
Stay if I ever could.
And pick up your pieces babe,
Cause there's never a perfect day."

"So I know nothing of your taste
and now speak up, lover.
It's in your lips, I found.
Come on, just press against me
I finally have your attention,
so listen closer, sweetheart.
I've been trying to tell you, stay awake.

And no, no one was safe here
Come back, come back, you stayed always.
Stay with me here

Stay with me and watch these cars go by,
and tell me the first thing that comes to your mind.

So watch as I go back
I just came to say that
you'll never see me again.
This clock is ours now, till morning.
So stay right there in that frame
This picture is how we speak.
You'll never see me again,
cause I miss you already.

And better that you haven't seen me.
I don't belong in anything you dream,
in anything we dream.
She said, "Put your hands back on my
skin and say you loved me,
cause I can't live like you do.
Never could."

Come on, just press against me.
You always have my attention,
and please speak up lover.
Make those lips move.

Come back on the weekend forever
cause you don't mean to shake that way
Come back on the weekend forever
Cause you don't mean to...

Stay with me and I will try to tell you
Stay with me and I will try to tell you

So watch as I go back
I just came to say that
you'll never see me again
This clock is ours now, till morning.
So stay right there in that frame
This picture is how we see you
You'll never see me again,
cause I miss you already."

and now for some lyrics from one of the new songs that is on the last album coming out tomorrow...**tear** and I'll post a stash entry of lydia videos if anyone wants to check them out. I'm so sad that they're breaking up :(

"So I told you
I know how this ends
you're no different girl
we could still pretend, and
you got carried away
in your own dress-up
I disappear with
some other actress.

Yeah we clean up so well
sure as hell like a picture"

sooooooo...just curious as to what everyone else does on their birthday. I just celebrated my birthday with my family yesterday since everyone had the day off...but...for my ACTUAL birthday tomorrow...I'm going to sit home...smoke, listen to tunes and drink...that's what I did last year as well. I dunno...I've never been big into celebrating birthdays, honestly. I don't know why...birthdays just aren't fun to me...it just marks the passing of another year...I tend to look back in bad ways on my birthday...ya know...it's like the passing of another year full of shit I wanted to do, but never got to do...I dunno...I'm the same way with New Year's Eve...I pretty much just suck, basically! lol...I'm pretty sure the last line of this video is something I agree with...and if you don't love the Mighty Boosh...you suck! ;) but the quote at the very end, Howard saying "You should celebrate that day alone…in sombre isolation." lol it's the most terrible EMO line ever, but I feel the same way...oh god...I'm turning emo...please! someone shoot me!...FAST! lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CNgL0E2BFEM

years later, out of nowhere. A box I forgot I still had. pale, near-virgin paper barely creased or ever read. The scent of your lipstick still preserved where you kissed it. The few only words you ever wrote me. "I'm glad we met." "I hope we can make each other happy." "we're a step ahead." ...we're a step ahead... I've heard that one before

I guess my time had come. Time that finally I'd walk in on...I guess my luck had run. Finally all run out, so I'll walk in on...I just want my friends right now. I just want my friends to help me out of this hopeless feeling I'm in, to forget what I saw. Panic in my chest. Clamp around my stomach. Funny when your heart starts beating faster (in a bad way.) God, how do I act? They haven't seen me yet. Turn, you stupid weakling. Walk away and everything will be okay. I just want my friends right now. I just want my friends to talk me out of the stupid things I might do if I go on like this. I should knock you both out right now. God knows I'd like to. So that's what you look like when you're being kissed... I never would have know - my eyes were always closed. My eyes. always closed. Last time I trust anyone. Last time I trust you.

When I see you smile, the corners of your mouth quiver like you're trying to hold it. And there's a tiny bit of sadness I think I see in you beneath those heavy, solid, deep, infinite eyes. I only hope you see me the same way I see you. So keep holding me in that gaze. I would give anything for you to keep holding me. Who you are is still somewhat unknown to me. But it's not the mystery that makes me want you. It's the tiny bit of sadness I think I see in you that tells me there's so much inside you. There's so much inside I want to know. I only hope I'm not misreading you. So please keep holding me in that gaze, because I never felt it before you. And just last night when you said, "How could I ever forget you?" ...just last night you said, "How could I ever forget you..."

Let's end this on a better note, and pretend I hadn't lost all hope. Then maybe a few of you will understand what I meant when I told you I'm too wounded at this point; I'm just too difficult. I can never be any good for you. So, goodbye. Goodbye. I'll not think of you all for a while. It just seems pointless now to even try. I've filled myself with too many things that I thought I could use to fill the holes inside I've made. But there is nothing. Everything's empty. This world has nothing. This world is nothing. And every ounce I drink, a small part of me dissolves 'til there's nothing left to hold the rest together. And everyone I touch strips away at the thing in me that tells me life and love are rare and precious. And I'm nearly all gone. So God restart me. This world has nothing. This world is nothing. So, goodbye.

Goodbye Salt Lake. My late afternoon flight. I'll take these wings, because I don't have my own. But if I did, they'd be even more weathered than these. And I couldn't get home. No, I wouldn't go home. From way up here I'm unknowingly looking at you. And I wonder if we're similar enough that you feel it. Up here it's just empty space and the cold, thin air. And I wonder if there's really that much more for me down there. Aileron, my enemy. Just this once, let my plane not go down. For as many times as I've begged you to fail, this time I've gotta get back alive to live and hear her voice again. God keep us safe, or turn us around and crash in the lake where I woke up today feeling so great.

I woke up with your beautiful name and body curling up next to me. Your room soaked in a clear, late-morning light, dull music still ticking quietly. The same birds singing that had started when we drifted asleep. I touch your cool hair and velvety back. Do you even understand why I call you angel, Nani? Driving me back in the warm air and I can feel our time is almost through. "So why don't you move here?" and you know I'm just dumb enough to. "When will I see you again? I hope soon..." But I know I don't really need to, because once is enough to bond me to you, but you know I'd love to see you, Nani. I attach too easily, and it just leaves me empty.