It's been a year now
Since he has been gone
Since my Daddy left the pain and sorrow
And I am still hurting
All the pain they said would go away seems to get worse
How do I cope
How can I be the same without his words
Good days and bad
I still think of him every second
I've learned to hide
Hide all the pain the wanting to cry
Nobody really knows
What I am thinking how my mind goes
Lost little girl
Princess without a King to help her laugh
To make her smile to hug when she cries
They all lied
It doesn't get better you just hide it inside
Pain won't stop
Missing him while I watch the clock
Friends try to help
Nobody can
I have to work through this myself
Daddy doesn't hurt anymore
Prayer answered in a way I didn't want
Was it my fault
Was I the reason really for him to die as some have said
I lost so much
Can't seem to be who I was
I try to deal with all this stuff
All the hurt I feel
Only time will tell
Will I be a person like he wanted
I can't give up
I must be what he said I was
If I am the strong one like they say
If this affects them in worse ways
How can they get through one single day
How can I be the strong one when
Inside I feel like someone tore out my heart
Took it out and left a hole instead
How tell me how can this be true
I don't feel strong
I feel lost and alone
Lost and alone with no Daddy to call
No Daddy to be there just to talk
Can't seem to get my self to understand
I can dial the number
But nobody is on the other end
He won't say hey baby
He won't say how are you
He won't make me laugh
Or tell me the news
He can't give me advice
We can't go for a drive
We can't talk about old cars
It kills me inside
It doesn't get better why did they lie
Why did they give me hope when I just die more inside
I have to be the person the person he was
The kind gentle soul that helped all he could
He was the strong one the one who held me up
Holding my hand when it got rough
I miss his laugh, his love, his hugs
Just for a second I want to hear his voice
Scared to listen because I may destroy
The only thing left the only thing real
Is a simple tape I use to hate but now hold dear
We laughed we cried we played in the rain
The one true friend who now has died
