So, what do you think of us now?
I've gone and disappeared,
left you with absolutely nothing.
But you don't seem to care.
And I really don't give a damn.
I've been stuck in that same
cycle with you for way too long.
You can't take anymore away from me.
I wish that it was simple to be rid of you,
to let my feelings for you and our memories
rinces away while standing in the chilling rain
But you haunt me, when I know
I no longer need you to live
or to simply have the need to love.
I have found something so precious
Inside me, that you never touched.
I have formed this world
and made it into my dream paradies.
It's my life, my love, my soul.
I wonder how I could have let you
so close to taking it all.
In one moment I had placed
Myself on top of the whole wide world
only to find it end in ruin and despair once more.
I find myself deluded in my own sadness,
and I long for nothing more but to be left alone.
I need no one to make me feel happy.
I need to search for all my answers
inside my heart, mind, and depths of my soul.
While I'm searching inside myself
I wonder if when I find myself.
Will I reveal all I am to everyone?
Will I show my fears, loves, desires, hidden passions?
I know for a fact it's all true
But it was all bound to happen sometime.
Better now than never.
So, I'll be left bare naked for all to see.
I'm not sure that I want to explore,
now that I know the conditions
and conclusions of what might happen
But whatever I decide, it'll be becuase
I am following my heart for the sake of myself.
No matter how I feel or what I have done,
no one will know all about me.
They may wonder and pass me by
Taking second glances and thoughts
But that will be the end,
I will then again be forgotten.
Does anyone have any idea
what its really like to be me?
I'm sure there's someone who has
an open, caring, and thoughtful minded heart.
But where are you?
Where is the other needing, longing
and darkness enthralled soul?
I have no way of knowing,
so I leave myself at just wondering.
Simply dreaming of the one day we'll meet.
Where the world will all but fade away,
and we'll be left here with just us.
Living off the Love that we've created,
taking the whole of our lives to do.
So, take my hand and live this love with me.
And every time you ask me why I care,
I answer what I know, the simple truth.
I just do, I just do.
And I always will
