Belladonna's blog: "Interesting Things"

I haven't blogged in ages.  I have been through the wringer and back.  I won't go into the particulars, but let's say I have learned a lot.

First of all, one does not need so many "things".  I was almost homeless (I kid you not) and got rid of all my stuff because I had to (I had no place to put it and couldn't afford to store it).  And you know what?  I didn't really miss it.

I learned to live on next to NO money.  Man, you have no idea how much Hamburger Helper and cheap assed stuff I ate.  And guess what?  I didn't lose any weight LOL.  That cheap food is loaded with calories and sodium.

No one will help a single white woman who appears to be self sufficient.  What I should have done was act all helpless and expect a handout.  Do you know that I couldn't even get info about the food pantry here in Orlando?  I emailed them and they gave me the run around.  I didn't have a phone to call.

Never live in apartments that house college students (unless you are one yourself).  Being awakened at 3 am by drunks in the parking lot or the idiot upstairs who decides to work out at 2 am and jump up and down on the floor was not pleasant when I had to be up at 5 am.

The most important thing I learned was this....you are alone in the world and you can depend on no one but yourself.  Oh, don't think I am cynical.  I'm not at all.  I am just stating fact.  People have enough of their own shit to deal with and have no interest in your shit. 

Men do not really want to take care of a woman.  They want her to be self sufficient and have their own money.  I couldn't get anyone to speak to me, let alone date me when I was almost homeless.  I didn't need to really be taken care of for long. It would have just been temporary.  In this economy there are tons of people in this situation.  All they need is to be lifted up a bit and told that they are cared for.

The most important thing I learned is that I am resilient and strong. I always thought I was - but now I KNOW it.

Carry on.