rising phoenix's blog: "it is what it is"

The smile you see is all for show. The words you hear no longer have meaning. I am here because there is nothing else left to do. I sit back and sigh and know its all over.

Time to rebuild. Time to move on. There are no tears. Mistakes and life's lessons is what we carry on for memories. Times remembered remain in the shadows. Its harder to Live than it is to die. 

There will be no next time around. There are no more answers I can give. It has simply become the walking nightmare I knew it would be. Finally walking away and learning to survive. 

Becoming the person wanted can not be done. The things Ive done and become are the way I shall be forever. Feeling have no more meaning. Emptiness is inside. 

Don't cry over me. Don't hurt for me. Its not needed. I need no more comfort. I will have my fears. My heart can never be broken when I no longer carry one. This is what it is.

This is the end