It hurts but sometime i have to sit there and consider the possibility that leaving my baby might be the best thing for him. I just start thinking i'm holding him back from being happy that i'm not what's the best thing for him. Sometimes i just think that while it would hurt him to start with losing me I think that in the end he'd find something better. SOmething better that he wouldn't find because if i were there he wouldn't look for it and so would not see it. I just want him to be able to have his ultimate happiness... I want him to find the best happiness in his life that he can and if i get in the way of it i ought to leave. Sometimes i just feel like we're too wrong and too different for each other. I fear i hold him back. I know theres people who think he shouldn't be with me. That there are just people who think i'm way too immature and wrong for him. I just fear that maybe they're right..
