Sally's blog: "insecurities "

one thing i have never understood is when you love someone so much you give up everything youve ever wanted to be with them and make them happy and they treat you like your a bad guy. you bend over backwards and do things youd never do just because its what thy wanted. and yet its still not good enough. how can someone tell you they love you one minute then you leave for work and they get on dating sites telling the opposite sex that they want them and the person they just told they love is lazy, insecure, drives them crazy and not in a good way and unfortunatley they are with them. why on earth do people do that if they really love someone? why do they sit there and cry and say it kills them that the only person they love doesnt believe they love them, thinks theyre cheating, thinks they dont want them, and wants to leave? but the next day tell the people they see daily that they dont care if she stays or goes. im fed up with giving my all and being told im their everything just to be bashed to every female that will listen. i love with all my heart and i was lucky enough to find a love as great as my sons father who was killed last year but sometimes im not sure if love is really enough. i deserve respect, loyalty, compassion. my sons father kept me a secret for far too long and even though i loved that man for many many years i still walked away. i refuse to make the same mistake twice because a womans heart can only break so much before it shatters. im young yet im too old to be playing these head games. ive lived my life at a very young age and i got all of that out of my system so when i got into such a serious relationship it would be real not just a huge game. do is stay or do i go? its my turn to make the decision because he has taken too long and has played too many games. 

I know i am one of the most insecure people you will ever meet. i know i am young and can be stupid and lazy and down right immature at times. i have been hurt many times in the past and that you must understand. i know youve been hurt alot too. its ok.......in life there are many many trying times, trials, mistakes, love and heart break. you are suppose to learn from those failures and mistakes. some dont, in my case i havent. for that i am sorry. i may not be perfect or even close to it. but i try to make you happy. i want to talk to you and tell you how i feel and why im insecure but you let your walls up and block me out. you let your pain seep into our love. i know of your insecurities and im here telling you there is nothing to fear. yes IM YOUNG, but honey if i wasnt sure about being with you then i wouldnt have given you the chance to show me you can love me like that. you make me feel like a woman. im not ashamed of my body when im with you, i smile for no reason when im around you, my spirits are lifted when you kiss my lips. my heads in the clouds daily just thinking about you i cannot concentrate when your around me. all i want to do is be near you, to touch you, to show you love youve only dreamt of. true love is happiness they say. well........for the first time in my life i can truly say i AM HAPPY. and its all thanks to you. i love you so much baby and i promise till the day i die i will never stop trying to prove to you how much you mean to me.