Tired of the drama see ya CT's blog: "Im so fuckin lost!!!!!"

From the first time that i talked to you, i knew that you were the one for me, but i didnt know how to tell you how i felt about you.Your voice was so sweet, and full of love, you were treated wrong, and i wanted to show you what was right, I was taken and it wasn't to my delight, i was in the wrong i knew that it wasnt right. We both wanted happiness and every where that we turned there was a fight. You were there for me through every fight, and told me that it would be alright. You were always on my mind, not a moment went by without me thinking what it would be like? If i called you mine and left my past behind, and sarted the journey that i longed for. Then one gloomey night you called and said David let make this right, i was shocked. We talked all night, and you said I LOVE YOU!!!and all of a sudden i got this feeling telling me yes this is right. It came from my heart. I have always wanted to know what love felt like and you have shown me every day and now my days are bright. I'm glad that you and I are one forever and ever, i will never let you go, not even if we fight. You are my everything. this is new for me so here it goes. " I'm in love with you, the person that you are inside" The loving, caring, would do anything for me, as i would do the same for you. I would give up my life for you to be happy. I'm with you threw sickness and in health. I cant wait until we say I DO and you take my last name, and start the greatest journey in our lifes. I want to grow old with you and sit on the pourch with you in our rocking chairs. I want to tell our children of the crazy life that we lived together and how are love has grown over the years. Well thats all tht i have to say and i cant wait until your my wife and i had to let you how my heart felt. Love Always, David Michael Hartman

I went for the longest walk lastnight and threwup so many times bc i feel sick to me stomach. I dont know what to do but wait for you to call i want to call u but your so busy and i dont want to bother you but i cant hold back anymore im hurt so much and its bc of what i have done. I tried to sleep and that didnt work my heart is broken and my thoughts are going crazy telling me to not give up and thats what my heart tells me to and its who i am and i wont go down without a fight and i feel so empty and lost not knowing if were are okay, will we make it through all of the trials that life will bring us, bc deep down in my hearti know that it will bc this is true love!! ive been crying for the past two days and i deserve it i have alot of time to think about what i have done and all i can say is tha it was so stupid of me to say what i did and if i could go back in time i would of thought about waht i was writting before i posted it. so thats all for now Piece out David "The man that truly loves ou with all of his heart and wil do anything for you."

I feel like i cant do anything right anymore, and every time that i do something right i fuck it up 1000 times worse. I never ment to hurt you, upset you, or even make u question my love for you. Your my everything and i cant imagine my future with out you, i have longed for what we have aqnd i neverwant it to end and i will do whatever it takes to have you as mine forever and to grow old with you sit on the front porch and tell are children of the wild past that we had together. From the day that i talked to you i knew you were the one for me and that we would grow old together. I have always longed for what you and i have and yes to me this is TRUE LOVE and i refuse to let it go without a fight, i will always fight for it with all of my heart. My father told me that i would know when i find that right person to spend my life with forever and your the one. You make me smile and bring a hole new meaning to love but, it seems like all i do is make you cry more tahn i make you smile and i feel like crap bc that not who i am i was brought up so much better. Every time that i hurt you i hurt a thousands times more for me and all i do is cry, and i know that you do the same. I fuck up alot and it hurts to know that i took all the broken peaces and put the back together and i keep on breaking them all over again and i fall back on my face and it sucks. well all i have done today is think about us and cryed over and over again and know i cant even sleep so i wil go back to thinking about my mistakes and hope that u can forgive me for everything that i have done. I Love You with all my heart and alwasy will David Michael Hartman