i found out i was on my bday...what a present huh? thats when everything got fucked up... everything was fine until i got this way now everyone fucking hates me... i told my bro in FL n he actually asked me if i did this to prove a point and said that i cant take care of myself so how could i take care of a kid...that basically proved to me that i cant tell anyone now...i dont even wanna think about what my mom would say... and the dude im with says he loves me but shows me so much hate every single day... im getting sick and tired of his ''temper tantrums'' or whatever, its like dude u wake up everyday at noon if not later, bitch n moan, tell me to get the fuck outta ur house every other day, and u dont plan on getting a job...and might go to jail next monday... wow i love being treated worse than a piece of shit.....not. ive had fuck buddies treat me better than this...and im prego on top of all the BS so i hurt, im sad, depressed, rarely happy, and supposed to be miserable everyday... what the fuck kinda life is this????? i wanna die and wish i never got pregnant w/this guy but then again im so happy i have my baby growing inside me... id rather be a single mom if he's going to continue to basically be a loser maybe he should go to jail, maybe he'll appreciate this gift alil more...i dunno i know if he acted like this and the baby was already born id leave in a heartbeat...nobody deserves to be miserable unless they want to be and dont want to change that, i dont wanna be miserable i should be overwhelmed w/happiness rite now...and i cant tell him any of this because he says its my fault shits not goin great rite now cuz im a bitch, n blah blah blah... whatever i dont even fucking know anymore im stuck in ohio n wish so bad i could leave but i cant i have more shit than they allow on an airplane.... :[ so hopefully itll get better sooner than later...
peace
