y do i even try. i liked this newest one so much. jamie. its beter to have luved and lost... fuck that shit. things were goin to good. i hadnt told much of u that i had a girl friend. thats because we were young in our relationship so i wanted to wait untill it had been a while to say. we made it just 11 days. now im fuckin depressed. i thought i finally had some good luck. for those who dont know this last year has been so fucked up for me. i still cant find a job. then i find a girl that is awesome. i like her alot and she just breaks up with me. for no reasen. she just wanted to. i cant handle this im goin to go insane. i havent had a beer since i was in yakima last. smokes r hard to get. no money at all. i even borrowed my moms bike and rode 8 miles on a free way to see her. i guess i cant do anything right. my next probation meatings comming up. i think jail would be a good bet for me at this time. just time to sit back and not worry about anything. i found someone else b4 that but there were issues there that she needed to take care of. ligitimate ones. but no room for me for a long time. so i failed in that to. i just cant win i fail at everything. i dought most of u care about this. i know some of u will but i think the majority of u probilly think i shouldnt be with anyone anyway. i just dotn know what to do. im goin insane. couldnt get it done in yakima. cant seem to get it done in marysville. she fuckin took a picture of us and then put it as her profile pic. two days later just up and leave me...