When I really think about my own life... I'd say for the most part yea... I am and would be at peace with myself for the most part... but going into the deep stuff. There so much I would just like to a lot more people but sometimes I just find myself really not saying anything and I know some of you know what I mean. Sometimes we choose not to say it and leave it for another time.
2 1/2 years ago I was at a real moment of life and death and I wasn't really doing anything so much where anyone would have died. I have asthma and it not like I'm handicapped and can't do certain things. I run and do everything like everyone else. So its not like I actually put myself to doing something causing me to get out of breath. But going back to my situation about 2 1/2 years ago I bought myself a fresh new pair of Timbs boots and decided to by the water proof spray for the first time. I sprayed down the timb so I could wear them the next day... At 3 am that night I woke up unable to breath... and a huge pain inside my lungs but I was still in a semi-sleeping stage where I really didn't fully wake up. That day I woke up even more out of breath and told my mom bring me to the hospital when I couldn't take it no more and found out it wasn't fading away. I couldn't even take 2 step and not feel like someone just took every last breath away from me. When I was finally treated and everything they told me that the spray really did a number on me and said I could have died at any moment (So if I was walking down the street and someone was running after me I would have just died) Cause my breathing went to a severe stage where you can't hear the breathing at all....
The whole time I was there I was just wishing with everything in me that could just breath again... and a whole bunch of things that I just wanted to tell everyone just passed through my mind of anything and everything of what I wanted to tell everyone.
Long story short...... My only point is that these are the times when you stop and think whether you are really living everyday the way you want to be. One most important things I've learned to always do (best I can) is to always make sure to let the people in my life know that I love them, every chance that I get. I know there are many people here who will regret their last words with a loved one for the rest of their lives. Life is too short to end a phone call upset, to walk away in frustration or even to cause someone else any in tensional pain and sadness.
Make your relationships worth it, folks. Don't forget to tell those people you love them. You can never be sure which words will be your last.
