I WONT LAY DOWN AND DIE
Category: Life
Ive just been to the hospital again and guess what? yep you got it no fucking answers,more there is nothing we can do this time i got told to stop looking for answers.
WELL FUCK NOOOOOOO i wont stop, i wont lay down and die, i will not except that there is nothing that can be done and i will not give in.
To except there is nothing they can do is to LAY DOWN AND DIE this i can not WILL NOT do there has to be A FUCKING ANSWER.
I've been getting worse for over ten years and im still getting worse the pain is now starting to spread through out my body WHY?
My head aches are getting worse WHY?
My speech is getting more and more slurred and words are some times difficult to remember WHY?
My balance is now very bad WHY?
When my head gets bad or i get sever pain i also get bad tremors in my hands WHY?
Some days all i want to do is sleep others i cant sleep WHY?
WHY is the pain worse when it rains or the weather is bad?
How come i can tell we are up for bad weather before the weather man?
WHY were things allowed to get this bad?
WHY have i not been allowed an M>R>I?
WHY AM I NOT GETTING THE HELP I SO DESPERATELY NEED?
HOW does everyone know my condition is inoprable when they cant tell me exactly whats wrong?
I WANT ANSWERS
I WANT TO KNOW EXACTLY WHATS HURTING AND WHY?
I WILL NOT GIVE UP
I WILL NOT JUST EXCEPT MY CONDITION
I WILL NOT LAY THE FUCK DOWN AND DIE
I DO NOT DESERVE THIS
I may have done some bad things. I may have made some very bad decisions but surely this does not mean that i have to live the rest of my life in complete agony chained to the house by my own body held prisoner by the pain its not fair and it aint right, I want answers, I'm not gonna give in, I'm not gonna shut up,
I WILL NOT LAY DOWN AND DIE
