blazequal's blog: "blazequal"

Okay, so here's the deal. I decided when I got laid off that I would become a chemist of sorts. It didn't turn out well and I'm not going to glorify or get down on it either. It was a decision I made and I can't nor would I change it. Sometimes you just have to get it on and that's what I did, For those of you who are understanding where I'm going with this; yeah I'm a cook. For the closed minded I suppose by todays standards I am now considered a terrorist, whatever.........

I have done my time, I paid my debt to society and have been clean for over two years. The real deal is I'm no longer here to many people I thougth were friends let alone my family. I'm not sure how to overcome this. Getting a job after leaving prison with a manufacturing charge is next to impossible. I ran restaurants, I have over ten years experience as a General Mgr, I raised three great kids as a single father, A and B students, well adjusted, smart, polite,  kids. Yet now I walk alone in this world. Sometimes I think my shadow would pack it in and leave if given the chance. Out of place and in another dimension where I don't get high, I'm not sure how the rest of the world lives. Somehow I am seethrough, hollowand determined.

I walk around looking for the Delorean that will hit 88 miles an hour and help me change things so that I will become visible in this polaroid world I seem to have disappeared from.