i shouldn't be feeling empty yet my heart yearns not to ache
i shouldn't be feeling guilty yet i make so many mistakes
i dont know how to fix it but put up the temporary facades
that convince even myself that at times im okay
i dont know what im supposed to being doing
i'm not even sure if i really know who i am
but i keep pushing and growing in what i know to be there
knowing eventually it will all slide out from me again
its easier for me to focus on others issues
than to look at or face my own
i just want things to be okay
and to not run and hide from all my guilt and fear
i'm so angry that they think it can just be prayed away
and that it will just make it better
and take all the guilt away
i know life isnt meant to be easy
nor robots are we wanting to be
but i struggle with the rollercoast that never seems to stop
the treck that never seems to go anywhere
but a few steps forward than slides right back
i feel out of place, i feel out of wack
i just want to make an error and know that its still alright
but instead i beat myself up and let guilt guide my life
