JeniWren's blog: "Dancing Bananas!!!"

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Life sucks at times and I know this through experience, but I don't find it necessary to discuss my most intimate life moments with people that I don't know very well. If you feel it necessary to know anything about me, please ask and I will respond with the truth or not at all, please do not assume you know me. It is me who decides how much someone gets to know me on here and you will know if I like you, I will wear my heart on my sleeve and accept you for who you are, I only ask that you do the same for me.

I REFUSE to wallow in the grief that i've been through and I do find it hard to understand why others do, but I do try and I have an understanding heart. I'm sure they have their reasons, it is just not away I want to live my life.

I REFUSE to let others suck the life out of me, if that is what you will do, I will move on quickly. I have no time to waste, but I will always try to listen if you need an ear and give advice if necessary. I'm not a hateful person, I simply don't need negativity.

I REFUSE to lay down and accept that this is as good as it gets, it isn't, I just wish others would!

I REFUSE to be intimidated by anyone, so please don't bother, you'll be wasting your time!

I REFUSE to stop wearing short skirts just because of my age. I will know when the time is right, not you!

I REFUSE to stop giving up stoping smoking (apart from weed)!

I REFUSE to accept that people don't judge you! It isn't about not judging someone, to me it's about what you do with that judgement that counts. If you let that judgement hold you back or not accept that person as they really are, we'll your fucked! 

I REFUSE to stop learning! I've wasted too much time already.

I REFUSE to live my life on YOUR terms. I've always done things my way, the way I see fit, the way I see just for all. Get over it!

I REFUSE to be dominated anywhere, except the bedroom. Live with it, i'll not always be at your beck and call!

I REFUSE to accept that mankind is dead, although reading some of the mumms it would appear it was! 

I REFUSE to accept shit from anyone. Please just leave me alone and go about your own business!

I REFUSE to stop trying to be a better person!

I REFUSE to be your enemy!

But most of all, I REFUSE to be anyone else but ME!

People wake the fuck up and smell the roses, life isn't about money or greed or who can get to level 45 the quickest. To me it's about cherishing each day as it comes. To sit on a beach with a bottle of wine and watch the sunset go down. To hug someone. To have a scorching hot bath when you know all your lying in, is your own shit, it's my SHIT!! To say a few words of kindness that may not mean a lot to you at the time .. but to the person you are saying them to .. it means the world. It is not about the latest fashions or what you own materially, to me it is being able to muster a smile through everything and not forgetten who I am as a person. It is about that one smell that brings back distant memories of something that might make you cry or laugh or something that once was. It's about being HUMAN!

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