I talked to someone close to me today and she told me u need to have a talk with ur dad..i just cant seem to do it.. i cant have that talk with him yet..i just feel so weak and scared i guess im not sure..i guess im in denial i dont know what it is maybe if i dont talk to him he will be ok if anyone can help me for once in my life i dont have any answers i am not that brave bold person i just dont want him to know im scared for him and i guess im being selfish scared for myself and how will i help my mom through all this..someone said live for today u dont have to think of the future right now just concentrate on the day and being with him..i guess this blog is asking for any advice anyone has for me..i know everyone dies just didnt think would be this hard to know he must be suffering its hard to cope with u see he is the bold and strong one i mean the man once went a year with a broken wrist and still did all his stuff he does without telling no one he is just a real tough man, maybe i get my fiesty self from him im not sure but sometime it will be over with and he will be gone... anyways this is just thoughts i have right now..i usually hide these kind of feelings but lately i cant..and i need some advice..and sometimes advice from strangers is easier to hear that from close family or relatives..love u all..licks
