It's been 2 years since my world crashed in, 2 years of every day missing and needing my husband.
2 years of forceing myself to get up and face the day, and thank god for my kids and now 7 grandkids, Cody 9 yrs, Sweet Jordan 7 yrs, happy Brooke 6 yrs, Fiesty Summer 3 yrs, Baby John 10 months who is named after you, And the twins Kayliegh and Hayden 6 months.
I have made many mistakes over the last 2 years , and I have learned many things,
But I try to remember the love we shared and the love I will always have for you until the day I join you, we had bad times , lord knows sometimes we wondered why we got married and why we stayed together.
But the good times more than made up for all the pain ,anger and hurt that two people will always give to another person as they grow and learn.
We laughed and loved, we grew together.We hurt when the other one was hurt, we went to battle when one was needed to protect the other, we stood together and back to back.
We raised two great kids, who without them I would not have made it though the rage and pain of loseing you .
It has not gotten better, I am just better at hiding the pain and anger.
I pray to God every day to watch over you, and hope you are fishing with Luc,(our dog was 18 years old when I had to send him home to you) I just hope you remember Luc does not like water but he did like to go to the front of the boat and hang out over the edge as the boat was going fast and pretend he was flying.
I know you are waiting for me, and I hope you know I will be there as soon as my chores are done on earth, as soon as I know the kids don't need me any more I will come home.
I hope you know how much I love you , and how proud I am to be your wife.
I hope Tracy and Misty know how much I love them and are proud of how they turned out.
