I am not your Barbie doll some one to dress up and throw away. I am not the silly little girl who still believes in fundamental goodness of people. Honestly I don’t think it exists any more. I’m almost sure that kindness is now considered a weakness instead of a virtue. Actually I’m positive at least from my view point that it is indeed a weakness. It has been my experience that all you get from being kind to others is rolled over and forgotten. I will never be what every one else expects from me but I am what I expect. I haven’t failed myself so I think I might still be a head of the game because I’m happy with me instead of trying to fit what others are expecting of me. I may never be a six or have abs of steel but you know what that’s ok. Like I said I’m not a Barbie doll and I don’t want to be. I am not here to be used and abused I’m here to find what life means for me not what others think it should mean for me. It’s taken me a while to get to this point but I think it’s a better place to be. Meeting my expectations for life makes things just a little bit easier. That’s not to say that I don’t have high expectations for myself but at least this way I’ve only disappointed my self when things don’t work out instead of failing everyone. This definitely makes it easier for me to want to take risks and try new things and continue to get out there and do so. I don’t know what life has in store for me but I think as long as I know I’m the one that decides my future and the people in it I’ll be just peachy.
