Sabot's blog: "i dont feel like my self"

Red eyes just keep my heart beating Your secret's safe with me Just drive, I've broken our mirror So our past won't look so tempting I never thought it'd feel this good to quit Failure tastes so sweet I'm not afraid anymore, forgive me I'll swing here, I'll hang from this rope Just at least until they've found me Stay close dear, the note on the floor says I wish that you were here At this point I'm not concerned

tonight we dine in hell

Red eyes just keep my heart beating Your secret's safe with me Just drive, I've broken our mirror So our past won't look so tempting I never thought it'd feel this good to quit Failure tastes so sweet I'm not afraid anymore, forgive me I'll swing here, I'll hang from this rope Just at least until they've found me Stay close dear, the note on the floor says I wish that you were here At this point I'm not concerned I never thought it'd feel this good to quit Failure tastes so sweet I'm not afraid anymore, forgive me

things i think about well i think about if ima going to wake up tomorrow or not sometimes i hope not just because i dont want to face facts and or the day some days i cant wait to go to work or something i used to love to wake up it was like being 5 again and waking up on a saturday morning to watch cartoons or see it was sunny to go out side and play now days my days just keep getting darker and darker and i just dont want to move anymore i think sometimes maybe if i dont wake up the world would be alot better off with out me maybe i should be like a ghost or something just want to wonder around and never talk to anyone probably the best take on my life a ghost or a phantom yeah i just might give up the game was fun to play but the shraid is all over the dark cloud will cast its dark night and i am the one it shines down on or just maybe i said to much .

really messed up one of the worst dreams yet maybe it was the fever maybe not my dream started out i was in a 7 11 and i was arrested dont really know why but they put me in prison i must have pissed someone off because i was put in solitaire confinment so i had nothing to do but go to sleep i woke up because i heard something really bad wheni opend my eyes the cell door was open i opend and looked out and seen the prison bars were not metal at all but humen bone and muscle tissue i stepped out a bit ferther and looked around and seen the prisoners skinned alive and being fed to a giant rat thats when i woke up in real life told you it was a messed up dream

i can not breath i can not hide from the things i keep in side i keep to my self the darkness inside .i see the world there is a warm glow but i feel like iam in the universe's under tow pulling under holding me below iam consumed in the darkness inside of me i feel as if iam the cosmos's prank the gods whiping boy is my fate the tears i have noone can relate to the darkness inside iam alone that i have made that is constantly cold i carode in the darkness inside my fate is sealed i have now soul to steal love is fleeting me evermore because of my darkness inside , i hate my fate this thing that happen to me as of late i can not wait for the long dark sleep to kill my darkness inside and when iam gone i pray that no other one will feel the same with the darkness in side

The man behind the mask is at the gate the look in his eyes tell's me i have no fate i lust for the darkness from which i came i leave behind all my pain to release me life i walk in to the light were i am loved once again but my pain is amused i feel so abused alone in a world that laughs and is cruel i sit all alone i feel like a fool i reach out to the glass it was just for my reflection i have always known iam the man behind the mask hiding my pain with a death head grin i still dont know where to begin love leaves my reach and alone in the darkness once again

well i must say i dont feel my self latley . latley i have been feeling depressed and sad i dont normaly say how i feel becuase most people whom know me personaly know iam always the strong one who is a rock when others need to talk iam always there to listen but that hasnt been the case latley i must say i really hate feeling like this .