i don't know why i do this to myself. if i don't cut it out soon, i think i'm going to have a damn breakdown! i'm getting to the point where i don't even feel like i can function properly. to the point where i can't even hide my streses when i need to. i used to be able to, no matter how horribly everything going, at least fake a smile and a pleasant attitude, especially at work. but i'm getting so bad, that the other day, my supervisor asked me if i was ok, because i haven't been myself lately. and i seemed upset. i just don't know what to do. i'm ridiculous. that's just all there is to it!
