It is amazing..How a promise turns into a big lie!I am so tired of being hurt and for what reason cause a guy dosent want to take responsiblity of his actions..So let just bail then..Then feel sorry for yourself cause he caused me hurt and pain..What do I do to deserve this?I just got hurt from a man I was with for 11 years about 3years ago..Than I meet this guy alot younger than myself.I had alot of walls up cuz of my previous breakup.So I would back off from time to time.Then I said screw it I want to be with this man.So eventually the walls came down and I fell in love with him.Granted he promised he would not hurt me like my ex did..That he is not like that..YEAH RIGHT!!!!!Then he even proposed to me last february and we were supposed to get married this May..With alot invested into this wedding..K back up a bit..Last July his father past away and he never grieved for him.He told me he is lost and he don't know which direction he is going..So now its leads to this week and he don't want to marry me or be with me anymore..My heart is shattered once again.I had to cancel and lose alot of money..What did he lose?not money,not having to explain to people that were not together and there is no wedding.Going to the bridal shop,calling the hotel,the Hall and sending sorry notes to out of town guests.Explaining to my son why he isnt with me.Giving up a car cause it isnt in my name.I had to give up alot and go through the pain of cancelling things and explaining why.Did he have to do anything?HELL NO!!!!!So I am going to move away from this crapy town of Rice Lake and go toward Minnesota more..New start..getting sick of new starts..Any Suggestions on how I am gonna get passed this..Cause I don't have a clue..Thanks for reading and it is good to get this out to people I just know online...
Leigh
