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posted on 02/20/2007&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;10:02&nbs-08:00;pm

Hurt and Pain
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Hurt and Pain Tears fall like rain from the sky
Though no one is there to see
Pain cuts through my bleeding heart
And still no one can see Fire burns throughout my soul
Searching for an escape
Only it knows Searching for comfort
for a friend to help in need
Only no one is around
to be a champion in her stead Looking for an out
Razor , Rope or Pills
Just wanting an escape
From the pain hurting instilled Reaching out to anyone
But no one seems to care
They have taken what they want from here
Leaving her barren and scared Crying to the stars
Clinging to earth
Knowing shes given all
Never knowing her real worth Only feeling the pain
The hurt that others left
Wondering why shes managed
To fail all of the tests Strength has forsaken her
The wings are clipped away
Staring at the pills in hand
Praying not to see another day So many call themselves friends
Yet no ones around to see
Just what their leavings have done
Not really caring, they have met their needs So what is left to try for
When pain is the only reward
When in giving and giving
Your only kicked out the back door Screaming out to understand
Just wanting a friend around
Yet in waiting darkness
There is no one around Deserted and Forsaken
No one really cares
As long as they have gotten
Their total share So take this forsaken angel
Remove her from this plane
Take away the hurt
And take away the pain For slumber in the forever darkness
Would be more welcomed than this
To never feel the knife blade
That in the heart continues to twist Never to have to worry
About being a burden again
Letting the final sleep
Claim the total win Slipping off so peacefully
Pain dulling as she goes
Forever leaving behind her
Those ones who used her so.... Good bye .. Good night
Into a final sleep
Never again to feel the pain
Never again to weep ....
2-18-07
1:35 am
Pixie
So many times we reach a point that we wonder why we try ... We do our very best, We give everything our all.. Only to allow some to get so close to us, giving them the power to hurt us so deeply .. trusting, caring, giving and doing .. never asking once for self... then things begin happening, pushing us deeper within ourselves, showing our shortcoming so fast and numerous that we cannot for a moment see the possibility of change, or the possibility that its not our fault .. but someone elses.. It seems society has done its job, " Look out for number one" ,
"Do whatever it takes to get what you want".. " Dont worry about being Honest and True" Giving back what you recieved freely and lovingly.. " Dont worry about whos toes you have to step on to accomplish your major goal" " Use until there is no more, then move on" .. No wonder that sometimes we feel overwhelmed ... especially when these "friends" begin to drain all you have.. take take take, then run away till next time they need or want again ...
Be Careful in the Company you keep....
You may just be suprised.. That when the time comes that you need a friend ... You find out that there is not a soul around ..
be one instead with universe.... when people let you down
for at least she gives lovingly, and knows how to share ... She wraps you in her Motherly Arms, kissing you as softly as a breeze... Reminding you that She is always there .. no matter what the need ... Peace, Acceptance and Love Is all any of us seek Maybe one day more will understand Maybe ...... ~*~Pixie~*~

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