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When at night you sleep and dream, Are you frightened? Do you scream? Does your mind play tricks and demons give chase? Do you look in the mirror only to see another's face? Are you driven into madness by evils untold? Does your body rot and become infested with mold? Before your eyes is your world torn into two; Devastating and destroying all you knew. Leaving you abandoned with nothing No voice, no life, no soul - only endless suffering. When you wake from a sound, While unspeakable horrors before your eyes abound; Do you scream in silence and quake with fear, Because you know the end is near. You close your eyes, giving into the darkness, and wait, But suddenly you open your eyes & find yourself in bed sitting up straight. The fear is present, but you are the only one in the room you find. Were the wraiths and fears real? Or just fabrications of your mind? But the early rays of dawn come through your windows and its warmth on your skin you feel. And you know then that the answer will have to wait until what the next night might reveal.

Laying forsaken... In this dark room of black... No one can hear me scream... As I die from what I most lack... I lay there in Anguish... spilling shattered tears of Disdain... They hide me away.... And I drown in my pain... With the shackles of reality... Holding me bound... My shattered screams... Are the only sound... My soul is in pieces... My mind is a mess... My heart has been broken... But still you wont Confess... Broken and shattered... You left me to die... You never Turned back... Even after I started to cry... The Pain rushes more quickly... Trying to torment me so much more... Pounding through my veins... Killing me faster than before... The darkness settles in... Dripping slowly from my lips... I can feel the sensation of blood... I cry out in vain as my grip on sanity slips... The light flickers out... My hope dies alone... Consumed by the hatred... For all my sins, I shall atone... Through the suffocating darkness... I see a glimmering light... So I strain my eyes... To get a better sight... Upon a gravestone... I see a gentle rose of white... Its soft silky petals stained with blood... My life slowly fades into an eternal night... I realize now that my fate has been sealed... Now I breathe in and whisper in vain... My last dying wish... I hope you Die alone in pain.... Fading past the rose and the blood... I find myself laid below... Just lay these roses upon my grave... As I lose myself and let go...

The dark twisted thoughts burn themselves into my head.... The shadows within my soul grow and consume any feeling that is left in me... Broken... Shattered... The never ending Hatred rips apart my sanity.... The loneliness manifests, suffocating my tattered soul.... Lost within the shadows.... My wounded soul will wander... Searching in vein, for that special someone.... To help sew together the shreds..... My heart is in pieces.... This eternal Hell is where my fate will be sealed.... As the tears and blood that spill remain.... I die alone..... Lost inside myself..... no hope will remain.... suffocated by my blindness.... Her lifeless eyes study the blade.... That sinister silver edge.... That ends a once innocent life.... My soul rises from my body still bleeding with pain..... Just leave the blade upon my body.... As I lose myself and let go..... Of my meaningless reality..... Innocence is dripping red.....

If someone told you that I'd died, Would you take the time to cry? Or would you simply hide your tears Until the time of impact nears? A moral dilema, a conscious choice, The time is now to spread your voice. Is one's life a precious thing, Or should it be wasted on a fling? You've heard the stories, you know the rhyme But what will you do when it comes time?

I feel sick, Burnt out like a candle wick. My eye's are burning my head is numb, I feel so alone just like a bum. You look at me with those dark eyes, There's no one here what a surprise. My hands are shaking, This is the feeling your making. Your lips they move closer, Your breath on my neck. My body starts aching, This is an emotional beating that I'm taking. It feels like I fell, my mind is thinking am I in heaven or hell?

Am I pretty enough now? She stands in front of a mirror, And sweeps her hair to the side A tear starts to fall She knows he lied Am I pretty enough now? It started one night When she was out Not giving a sh!t Who was out and about She saw her boyfriend He casually walked up to this girl Told her they just couldn't be This boy was her world She stood silently Then asked him why "Sorry your just too ugly" A tear fell from her eye Am I pretty enough now? She fell to her knees And was so confused He got what he wanted from her She felt gutted and used She walked into a room Everyone was staring No one said a thing Over the music which was blearing They just stared at her She turned to leave They all cracked up laughing It's something she could never believe Am I pretty enough now? She started walking away Slammed the door Asked herself "am I ugly" She didn't know anymore She walked all the way home Tears in her eyes "God you're so pretty" Those were his exact lies Am I pretty enough now? She walked to the front door And no one was home She got out her keys and went inside She felt cold and alone She stormed up to her room Grabbed her knife She knew what she wanted To end her life She then stormed on to the bathroom Looked in the mirror at the reflection Something looked wrong She looked like an infection Red and blotchy, tears streaming down She grabbed the knife and cut her face Feeling like a idiot, an ugly one Feeling like a total complete disgrace Then she cut her wrists, legs and arms Wrote something on the mirror with her blood Then stood in the bath Trying not to cause too much of a flood Pushed the plug into the plug-hole And lay down waiting to die Filling up the bath with blood Not wanting to cry But the tears continued falling And the cuts continued bleeding She knew this was the end And all that left is a note to be reading Her mother came home Late that night Searched the house From left to right Found her daughter in the bath Dead in her own blood Laying in the bath was her knife Floating amounts the flood She read the note written one the mirror She broke down into tears Not knowing that she felt this way Was one of her mothers biggest fears With cuts on her arms, wrists and legs And all over her face Her daughter knew deep down inside To her family she brought disgrace Her mother collapsed into a pile Crying on the cold ground Underneath where her Daughters note was found The blood stained mirror Said something foul Her last words were Am i pretty enough now?

I wanna tell You things I've never told And take You into the center of my soul I wanna run through The fields of your imagination Under the blue skies, You're the golden sun The light in my eyes, I know You are the One See where my heart lies As you guide me through the shades of gray Along the way I will hang on every single word You say And never live to see my dying day I'd walk the aisle a million miles To see You smile I wanna know how it feels to believe in something Ride on the heels of a good thing coming Run to the one thing I know is something true I wanna be with You Want You to show me the wonder of the word Want You to hear me like no one's ever heard You have and hold me Leading me out of the darkest night Into the light And never has it ever been so right And from this moment on You are the sight I can't erase I close my eyes, I see Your face I wanna know how it feels to believe in something Ride on the heels of a good thing coming Run to the one thing I know is something true I wanna be with You Every day, every night For the rest of my life I wanna be where You are 'Cause You're never very far away I always wanna be with You I wanna tell You things I've never told And take You into the center of my soul I wanna run through The fields of your imagination I wanna know how it feels to believe in something Ride on the heels of a good thing coming Run to the one thing I know is something true I wanna live my life like I hold the meaning Deep inside my soul I hear the music screaming Eyes wide open I'm awake and dreaming, too I wanna be with You

I feel my days are running away like rain I'm trying to hold on even though it's in vain off and on every day we change all and all love and pain remain I wish I could exist without your love I wish I wouldn't be dependent on don't lie to me to make it all allright when your eyes are telling me good-bye Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you so Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you more than you know Don't go I know the way you feel won't stay the same I wish that I could rise above the pain on and on I'll take it day by day all in all I make it through the rain Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you so Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you more than you know you're breaking my heart Don't go you tear me apart Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you more than you know When you look into my eyes can you see the fear I'm holding back I don't want to let it out cause this fear is keeping me on track I just got to let you know I don't want to see you go away I won't change love and pain remains

You turned my world around a long time ago I just can't take no more, got to let you know now I'm burning with fire passion burns along with desire and I'm standing here waiting for the night you belong to me I'm burning up for you, so deep inside my soul All I want is your love It's the stuff where dreams come from all I want is your love take me there with your magic touch all I want is your love can't get enough I'm caught inside a web of mystery holding on to what I think I need and I'm lost here without you I know I'm a fool to allow you and I wonder when it was that I said you can't feel good I'm burning up for you, now I might loose control I'm burning up for you, you're all that I need the heat that I want Is what I breathe

I just know it I can feel it there's something in the air tonight maybe the moon just gave up and fell something's not quite right my heart feels so empty my mind's so full of doubt I should just stay in, and go to bed but now I'm stepping out Sometimes I feel I was born to love you sometimes I feel I was born to die of need I ache at the thought of you - holding another I can't shake the feeling that I'm born to bleed I just knew it - you're not in here and this where you said you'd be talking with your friends, just being yourself well that's the part of you that worries me I should stay here, sort of hang out but I quit smoking and I hardly drink the only bad habit that I've got Is dealing with the thoughts I think Home at last - well, there's your car in the driveway when I get in that house I'm gonna give you a piece of my mind you're sound asleep - I might have known it well what's this? You left me a note says you waited up for me, till the sun came up let's see what else you wrote