HOW DO YOU TELL SOMEONE THAT THE DECISION THEY MADE REALLY HURT YOU AND MADE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU DIDN'T MATTER TO THEM?  WHEN YOU ARE THE ONE THAT IS ALWAYS THERE FOR THEM NO MATTER WHAT AND THEN THEY TURN THEIR BACK ON YOU AND ACT LIKE IT IS NOT BIG FREAKING DEAL.  WHEN THEY JUST MADE IT SEEM LIKE YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH THEM WAS JUST A CONVIENCE AND THAT YOU NEVER REALLY MATTERED... ALL THOSE PHONE CALLS STOPPIGN WHAT I WAS DOING TO CONSOLE AND TELL THEM THAT IT WAS GOING TO WORK OUT.  NOW I AM SITTING HERE HOLDING WHAT IS LEFT OF MY HEART WONDERING IF I COULD HAVE BEEN A BETTER FRIEND AND IF SO HOW SO I DON'T FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING THAT I DID WAS IN VEIN TO BE TOLD THAT I DONT CARE IF YOU LIKE IT OR NOT BUT THIS IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO AND ESPECIALLY TO KNOW THAT THIS FRIEND IS DOING SOMETHING WITH SOMEONE THAT HE/SHE KNOWS IS GOING TO TURN THIER BACK ON THEM AGAIN AND THEN HERE I AM PICKING UP THE PEICES BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT A GOOD FRIEND DOES AND YET I AM STILL HERE WONDERING IF I WAS EVER A FRIEND OR JUST AN ACQUANTINCE,,,,