DJ HERETIC's blog: "How Bloody Random!"

Stolen from LeahAlissa. Making it mine.

DO ME.

It'll be good for... well, me.

I'll post results as they become available.

Please, my dearest friends, don't panic. I've been under the weather, in more ways than one. I miss you people more than I miss my real friends (don't tell me what that says about me). I think of you all the time. I hope you are well, I've been sending you all positive thoughts and warmest wishes. My return, at least in the short term, will be minimal. Please don't be offended. I have some rebuilding to do in my personal life. I'm not going away, by any means. You can't shake me that easily, mi amigos. :-) My love to you all. Much love. ~jgw

Sick and tired of hurting people I care deeply about. How in the hell do I manage to do this? MORE THAN ONCE? I have a very special bond with several people on here. I know their flaws, their special circumstances, and I try to work within them all. And I still manage to crush those I care deeply for. People with real hearts, and real lives. I know, it's only the Fu. It does make me wonder though... am I that truly lacking in my capacity to prioritize? Do I truly lack social skills? I promise, my next blast will give me all the credit for ineptitude that one could ever hope to hide. :-( Shoot me now, or forever hold your peace...

Got a minute thirty? Check this out... it's more about the song than the animation.

Watching the anime series Hell Girl. Two disks in, not bloody fabulous... rather more of a procedural where the perps and victims change, but Hell Girl and crew show up, throw down the challenge, and later inevitably claim and ferry an offending soul to hell. While a pretty black haired girl who ferries souls to hell probably sounds like half the women I've dated, I assure you there are no similarities. I'm hoping the series continues to deepen, so it doesn't seem the same story over and over.

The song? Sounds like what David Lynch always hoped to achieve with Julee Cruise, but better. The lyrics aren't perfect, but pretty effective nonetheless. And I seem stuck on it lately, as much as I'm stuck on Radiohead's "All I Need" from In Rainbows.

This is the promotional video, sans the ever-useful subtitiles... they actually spent some money on it. Quite nice in the long form.

This translation isn't as poetic as the subtitled version, but you'll get the gist.

Basting
Vocals: Noto Mamiko
Lyrics: Mieno Hitomi
Composition: Nishida Masara
Arrangement: Nishida Masara

Let's pick memories; let's pick flowers
I'll raise a single flower to the darkness in my chest and arrange it

At the dead end all the time
I can never escape
I'll let my sorrow ride on the birds in the sky and fly

This place is the basting
The eternity that binds me
Whose going and returning passes by me is a dream

The sun sets and hides the shadows; alone, I feel like crying
The centers of my eyes that stain black will grow afraid

This is place is the basting
The eternity that knitted the world
Whose going and returning follows is the wind

I strayed away for a moment and wept...

This place is the basting
The eternity that binds me
Whose going and returning passes by me is a dream

Sorry, I'm stuck on it right now. Radiohead - All I Need I’m the next act Waiting in the wings I’m an animal Trapped in your hot car I am all the days that you choose to ignore You are all I need You’re all I need I’m in the middle of your picture Lying in the reeds I am a moth Who justs wants to share your light I’m just an insect Trying to get out of the dark I wanna stick with you, because there are no others You are all I need You’re all I need I’m in the middle of your picture Lying in the reeds It’s all wrong It’s all right It’s all wrong It’s all right It’s all wrong It’s all right It’s all wrong It’s all right It’s all wrong It’s all right

I probably need to step away from Fubar for a bit. I've met some pretty wonderful people. Some of whom I care about pretty deeply. I treasure the moments I've spent with them. The last thing I intended to do was cause pain to anyone. I got fu-married to a wonderful, sweet, lovely woman. This has caused pain to people I care for. People I'd crushed on. Friends. 'Family' members. I can't take that back. To anyone wounded, or who has felt slighted, all I can say is I'm sorry. I never wanted to mess with anyone's heart. You are all pretty special people. I probably need to step back for a bit and reassess who I am here, and what I've done. Again, I'm sorry. ~jgw

I'll be gone for a little while. It's my job to be trained monkey at the local fair for the next week and a half, twelve hours a day, starting Wednesday. If I'm lucky, they'll get me some fast internet. But it hasn't been so in the last two years, so I doubt much will change this year. I will try to check in for about five minutes each night after work, but that's about all I've got until I return for good. To anyone disappointed, sorry. But I'll be back! Thinking warm thoughts of y'all. Leave love!