With you on my side who could go aginst me's blog: "hope and doubt"

When I'm feeling down and out it is you that makes my day Perplexed about life and its obstacles, you help me find my way. While she looks at me with them big bright eyes. And gives me a soft subtle touch that give me shivers inside You tell me about life and encourage me to change. And make it a redundant statement till it seeps in my brain. while her lips look the same but feel nothing like yours incapacitated by a kiss and my eyes scream for more You have yelled at me and I yelled at you from moring to night And then we talked it out i look in them big bright eyes i knew it would be alright But then she comes along out of the clear blue as if i blink one time and there she was With happy tears in her eye as if i've been gone for days showered me with kisses and hugs A twisted situation I guess you could somewhat say so. Oh but the agony i would feel if i let either one go. But its funny how much you too look alike. I have to stop some days and make sure i got your name right. You look at me and smile and that just throws my world off. You cant even fathom just how much you got me lost I'm finding it hard to put the connection to my brain. And if i don't it could drive me insane. I love you and i love her but it causes no pain You are My Best friend and my Lover you are both the same

As she touched me I knew it felt right. I became a man that very night She whispered in my ear something so right Her in my sight with my lips held tight She pulled me close as i knew once before it then vindicated the feeling so i had to do more Stopped so sudden there as i stand Aroused but still wanting her to make me a man Time passed by in a ceaselessly fashion What i know was build in me as never ending passion And then my day came and how good the engagment With one more person in this circumferential arrangement Years later and she all i could think about When im with any woman I see her and the trust is out She broke me down like no woman could Two souls lost or never understood I pray now cuz heaven is where all my fears are on hold And i pray for you Cuz i was seven years old

Cold night some how felt like a hot summers day. The way she moved around the room in a sultry sway. Her lips speak my name with the sounds of an angels voice. As she licks them ever so gently with precision and poise. Her skin feels like the finest of linens so flawless and smooth. To gaze apon her beauty would make any man swoon. Her eyes of entanglement and enchantment when I glance I pause Seductiveness stops me then I get my self lost. I love when we talk we engage in meaningful conversation. And she listens to me with the up most patience. A fine example of what a woman should be. Strong as well as elegant and a demeanor so meek. Hours have passed and I know I have to go. Back to a life where the love used to show. Back to the pain and bullshit where sex is gift. Where love making stopped and just your gratifications exist. Back to the degrading and the depravation you give me for my self esteem Your angry towards me for nothing it seems A few artificial apologizes you think will make it all better But the constant pain I feel makes it hard to keep it together. It makes it hard to choose to lose you. But I found a woman to love like you use to

Key Black mask black gloves As I look like a thief in the night. Irreplaceable items took as you put up a fight. But one in particular your reluctant to let go. As you say no the tears in your eyes start to show. I put my ear to it as I hear its mangled and dismantled clamber. Locked away tight in a box with no visible signs of tamper. Thoughts are racing asking myself is this what I came for? It’s broken to bits, is that why the pain is stored. Tired from the struggle we fall to the floor. And that’s when I asked you what are you keeping this for. You told me I keep it lock away because how fragile its become. Our hands on the box gleaming at each other we know it’s begun It felt as days then weeks and months went passed As we held that boxes of shattered past. Determination is the key as I thought to myself. What lies in this box will give me so much wealth. A better understanding of a man and his role And I know it will give me a sense of control As I lay on that cold hard floor I think to myself is it worth it and started to quit In that same thought the sweat from your hands loosened your grip, I saw the key in your palm starting to slip. On the cold hard floor the key then hit. I grab that key and the box and fled out the door, And ran to my home and open the box on the floor. Hundreds if not thousands of pieces fell to the floor. And with my glue gun and pieces I started to restore. Each and every piece was so delicate and fragile With countless cuts on my hand it’s like I were in battle. But there was no stopping as many made one And by the end of this project I knew what I have done. I got up to leave to search for who I had stolen this from. And as I opened the door there she was but her head was hung. She said I followed you here the first time you fled I was with you Through the pain on you hands as you bled. And as we laid on the cold hard floor you listen to me like no ones ever done before. My thief in night but persistent from the start. Most tried and all failed but you stole my heart

Lock eyes Hold hands and Its starts with a kiss Lost In love When You feel His lips And this trust that once was Now you will risk. He puts all out there that your the only one But Deep in his heart hidden he still wants to have fun. So For a long time he breaks your heart with lies after lies But never Cheats On you But his lies will make your Broken Heart Decide He think to himself You stuck by him for so many years But it all became real when he thought he would lose you so he wiped you tears A better man He plans to be and thats what he will stay But your broken heart wont let you forget all those crying days The man that you met is right in your face But the hurt look in your eye has now turn to hate A tear runs down his face with his arms open wide You try to love and make love but in your heart you despise He tyrs to love you sorry for his ways But in your heart you have already walk away And when THAT MAN realized that He knew he could not stay

Time moves on as I think of the past, The moments we shared and the times we laugh. My love for you well its hard to explain, But your not here so I'll show it in rain, I'll show it in the sun that lights up your face I'll show it In stars that Guide you to space. I'll show you in love Like a parent to a child, I'll see it in your face every time that you smile, And show me you love me Like I do for you, I know that its hard and you know that its true, Remember those days when you thought it was over. and life was hell with the world on your shoulder. But in that time you stop and you thought of the rain and the sun the stars and a smile, then the time we shared thinking those days were wild. Just push and move and I'll be there, so worries no fears not even a care. So till the day you die we wont be apart But I am right now so keep me in your heart.

They used to talk about it all the time And never once did it cross my mind I saw it shine bright in a few couples But where it was dark was nothing but trouble I saw it in a new mother's face And the pain she felt is some how erased I saw it when they walk so true And seald it with a simple I do And now I see it every time you smile If your name was my last breath I still walk a mile Then shout it out as loud as I can So the world could know I was your man I was a child and now I know That the love you give helps me to grow.

I cant seem To stop My past says I should let go but my hope says no, When I heard it b4 and so much more, You think your not loved but you truly are, My heart my soul sent from the stars, Its not fair that i take it all out on you, But the pain i felt a knife or gun couldnt do, I know it was not you who cut me so deep, But i love you the same And i'm not going to be beat, So i dont mean to do what i do, But prove the day you mean i love you, I LOVE YOU BABY GURL (sorry)