I have begun reading this book...On the Threshold, Home, hardwood and holiness....a friend sent it to me, said he thought that I would really enjoy it! We talked about my spiritual journey over the last year, he gave me a "reading" and proceeded to tell me why it is that I am doing the things I am doing.......ok, the insight that he gave me about my life was SCARY, to say the least! The things he said to me, made TOTAL sense, and he mapped out my life as though he had known me all my life! After all we talked about, he wanted to send me this book, so I allowed him to!
As I began to read, from the very beginning, I felt as though this Author was writing about my life, so i just wanted to leave a few incerpts from the book, perhaps leave some inspiration for others!!!
".....On the outside, one foot preeceded the other and geese scattered from my path. Inside, it was as though, all my life I had been riding a mighty steed which, on a whim, decided to buck. I was thrown. Gravity yanked my heart down so roughly that it bruised and split. At least that's the image that came to me then, the story that layered itself on that moment, explaining my sharp intake of breath and clutched gut. Afterward, the depression that raged in me for a full year I blamed on the feisty and unfaithful horse. ........Now, I recognize the stallion as God, the theistic deity who existed outside myself; it was a temperamental and unreliable mount from the start. ......"
".......The realization that God, the holy one I worshiped, didn't seem to care is what unseated me. I wanted to believe otherwise, but it was God who galloped away in that moment, flanks shining and nostrils flared with defiance. ...."
".....The story of the soul's night is never wasted. Sadness is a wilderness we walk through, leaving behind a meager trail of bread crumbs. We can't retrace our steps to get out. We can only forge ahead, meet the witch, outwit her when we can. grab her jewels, and run. If we make it out the other end, the father who chose to abandon us is still our father. His compassion is incomprehensible. ....."
Over the past year, many things have made me question the existance of "GOD", made me wonder if all my beliefs were in vain! Slowly but surely, I am finding that answer, it isn't easy, and my road isn't even half way traveled, but I know in my heart, that one day I will again be whole and that all this will seem quite the petty circumstance!
I hope that, for any of you who read this, one day you will realize what I am now. If you are on the same path, perhaps this will help you in some way, as it seems to be helping me!
BLESSED BE my friends! Much love and harmony to you ALL!!!
Jewels
