All That Glitters's blog: "hmmmmm"

Imagine by Angie M. 8/4/07 When you lay your head down on your pillow tonight, imagine me lying next to you. When you roll over onto your side, imagine me curled up against you. When you wake up to the early morning light, imagine me sleeping peacefully. When you reach over to wake me up gently, imagine me smiling at you. When your lips touch mine in a sweet kiss, imagine my arms around your neck. When you make sweet love to me, imagine me moaning softly. When you get in the shower each day, imagine me there washing you. When you are at work each day, imagine me at home waiting for you. When you look at me with that look in your eyes, imagine me blushing. When you tell me I am beautiful and that you are proud of me, imagine me speechless. When you tell me you love me, imagine me telling you... you are my love, my friend...my world.

A LOT HAS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE SINCE THE LAST TIME I BLOGGED ON HERE. I MOVED BACK TO ARKANSAS AND THOUGH I DONT REALLY CARE FOR LIVING HERE, I AM STUCK HERE FOR A BIT. I NOW HAVE FULL SOLE CUSTODY OF MY SWEET LITTLE HONEYBUNNY. HIS DAD CALLED AND ASKED IF I WANTED HIM AND OF COURSE I SAID YES. IM A BIT SAD RIGHT NOW, MISSING MY SON, HE IS WITH MY EX'S PARENTS FOR A FEW DAYS TO DO THE CHRISTMAS THING WITH THEM, BUT WILL THANKFULLY BE BACK ON CHRISTMAS EVE. MY TWIN SISTER MOVED BACK TO ARKANSAS, GOT MARRIED AND THINGS LOOK GOOD FOR THEM. I AM REALLY HAPPY FOR HER AND HOPE AND WISH THEM THE BEST. TO ALL OF MY CA FRIENDS ON HERE, I AM SORRY I HAVENT BEEN IN CONTACT MORE, PLEASE MESSAGE ME IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, EVEN JUST TO TALK...XOXO

How does one cure a broken heart? How do they find a way out of the dark abyss of their sorrows? I feel so empty inside and I don't know how to shake this depression. I am not talking over any guys, this is more personal, more painful. Those closest to me know what I am talking about. It hurts so bad to not be able to talk to him, hold him, kiss him...HUG him...he was and is my life and with him gone I feel like my world has crumbled around me. Sometimes I don't know why I even bother with anything. Sighs... I miss him so much, I cry myself to sleep thinking about him. I don't know why they are keeping him from me...I didn't do anything wrong to deserve this torture. All I am guilty of is being human and loving him with all of my being...my son was the sunshine in my life and now without him in my life...it is dark and cold.

Not really sure what to tell people. I live in CA and it is ok here...I miss the Midwest and my family. I have been here for a while now and have had some memorable times...especially visiting San Diego, went to my first legal street race and saw the Pacific Ocean for the first time...went to La Jolla Shores at 2 in the morning...saw the seals and it was breathtaking...the company was wonderful too. Thanks for giving me something special to always remember and you know who you are. I will never forget those 3 days..ever. I have made some good friends here and it is getting better.