Hmmm...
I'm still wearing a smile on my face. :)
You all can't imagine how much fun I had. Not just with the movie... but because I got to spend time with someone that I care about. Someone that is a true friend...
We went and watched GrindHouse... very cool. very gory movie. Right up my alley... full of action and all!!!!
Stevie's seen it before but that didn't stop him from coming back to see it again. He knew I wanted to watch it so we did.
He'd make little catty comments... lol... had me about rolling in the floor sometimes.
He stayed the night. And we did something that couples usually don't do in bed... We actually went to sleep. I know, I know... it's amazing... right, you don't believe me... But we did. We wrestled around, tickled, talked... but none of our clothes were off. promise.
We slept cuddled up next to each other. He didn't try anything... although he knew he could probably get me if he wanted to. It's not that either of us hasn't had thoughts about it... But he also knows I want this as a true friendship 1st and foremost.
That was my mistake with Marcus. We didn't have time to become friends before falling into the whole relationship/engagement thing.
This time will be different. I wanted a guy I could talk to... I have that with Stevie. I wanted someone I could lean on, again.. that's Stevie.
Yeah, he's a guy. He thinks about sex. But in his own words, there's more to a relationship than sex. We did discuss this last night... er this mornging... lol. Like I've said, I talk to him about everything.
He knows what I have fears about right now. I know what he's scared of. I know some of his likes and dislikes... same as he knows me.
I just want happiness.
For the 1st time in a long time... I didn't cry on May 25th. Nothing went wrong... I didn't get my feelings smashed and my heart torn in two.
I was a little down when Marcus texted me and wished me a happy anniversary. That date is no more than a date on the calendar of my past now. I am not married (in the process, but technically) so therefore the anniversary went away with the marriage.
But, I have so many happy thoughts and things to bring a smile to my face that I couldn't be depressed. I had things to look forward to. I had people to see and places to be. Everytime I felt a little sad, I'd think about last weekend... that 1st little kiss... blush and smile.
Or I'd think of spending a whole weekend with a man I get along with so very well... his friends accept me.
Monday, me and the kids have been invited to a movie with Stevie and his mom. We're gonna go watch pirates of the caribean 3.
It amazes me that he cares like he does about me and my kids.
He says heavyn lea will be a heart breaker when she grows up and he'll have to have 2 guns to chase guys away from her.
I'm glad he likes the kids. I'm glad the kids like him. It wouldnt work out if they didn't like him no matter how much I like him.
If we get together or not. He'll always be a part of my life. I can gaurantee that.
Oh and for those with curious minds... did I get a 2nd kiss?? maybe... maybe not. Only my friends will find out if I want them to know ;)
