well it been one hell of a night. i dont think i can call myself a adult with the things and childish act been pulling lately. i think i been doing what is best for my family but everything good south each time. it seem i been looking things in a way that they can be safe without me. i try my best change but there always is that feeling of unease. hold pain or tear can drive you crazy without you realize it. well that all for today sorry for my bad spelling or bad writting