Bam Bam RL Hubby 2 Tigger's blog: "history"

So here I am again. i guess i can pick up from where i left off earlier.

After getting my place in mattoon i had my place and a computer and met this wonderful girl in canada.. named melanie and we talked back and forth for about a year.. and i took my years vacation up to montreal canada and saw her for a week.. and went back afterward.. completely smitten and totally in love with my half french canadian half egyptian gf. i made arrangements and left my job after another couple of months.. leaving that job to be with melanie up in montreal canada. and things were really good for the most part.. except she didnt like to go anywhere bc of certain phobias.. so she wouldnt get a job or work.. and um.. well.. i took a under the table job cleaning apartment buildings halls ect for a while.. barely making money .. and she ends up pregnate after 4 months. omg im gonna be a daddy i was so happy.. but things with her and i were back and forth .. and i dunno i did some stuff online with someone i shouldnt have. i dont know why i did.. but after i did .. i felt guilty as hell.. and so i went to her and told her. and she forgave me at least she pretended to.. at about 7 months pregnate she started acting weird.. moody.. not just hormones.. apparently she was going to her moms and freaking out.. so they tell me since i dont have my visa i need to go to texas and stay with a friend.. he was gay and like a little brother to me.. so .. i get the ticket.. and were all at the bus station.. they are crying and going on about how much they love me and miss me already.. and its killing me... and then i ride the bus from montreal canada ... all the way to victoria texas.. all total with layovers delays and road time.. it was about 72 hours .. 

I was there and it rained literally for abotu 25 out of the 30 days of the first month and ended up sick with astma and bronchitis and chest problems but i started getting over it after a month.. it was what 3 or 4 weeks into it and i ws putting applications in .. and my gay room mate starts making comments. apparently he told melanie i wsa talkign to someone or something .. when i wasnt.. the next thing i know.. she calls me and tells me that shes going to have the baby alone.. and she never ever loved me. i tried everything i could to find out what happened and work things out with her.. but nope it didnt happen.. a couple of months later when im working and paying half of the bills and supposed to get put on the lease with him. .. he starts making comments to me about how he had a crush on me.. thennnn his married bi friend starts coming around and telling him what to do.. basically his new bf didnt like me.. and they kicked me out.

by then i had been talkin to someone in the dallas fort worth area and she came and got me in comes Julia to my life.. her father owned a roofing company and he started teaching me how to do everything.. measure roofing.. all that stuff. and julia was real sweet at first.. but she had lupus and fibro mialgia. i hope i spelled it right. anyway .. i couldnt even touch her or kiss her cheek without causing her pain.. and then it turned out she was severly bi polar.. and when i caught her screaming and yelling at the baby niece.. i had enough.. i talked to her father and he told me basically i should move on. and that he was sorry i had been through things with her. that he really liked me and understood. that i was a damn good worker .. it surprised me he was so frank and nice.  and i started talking to a girl up in park rapids .

enter stacey.. i get on the bus and go up there leaving julia.. and i end up in the land of freezing ass cold.. GO VIKINGS BTW... stacey was a mixture of irish and italian.. and a freaking little spitfire. but um.. she started acting weird.. and we split up but stayed room mates.. and  she freaked on me a lot.. even putting her hands on me.. but i didnt do anything but tell her to keep her hands off me. eventually i moved out and got my own place.. and ended up with another room mate from a temp job i had .. and i was working at both mcdonalds and a gas station called casey's.

so i get my own apartment and im working at caseys. and mcdonalds both for about 120 hours or so a every two weeks.. for a year.. and i get fired at caseys.. for giving a pita.. that was expiring and going to be thrown away that night.. i gave it to a homeless dude that another worker told me can i give him something.. so i did bc it was going to be tossed anyway that night.. but i forgot to mark it down on the paper .. the manager who gave free food away all of th etime fired me..  so down to one job.. and started having bad allergy and sinus attacks and because i missed too much work i lost that job.. and thankfully a good friend became a gf .. enter rachel.. she was so awsome.. and she loved me so much.. and i loved her to death.. but not like she loved me and i felt in my heart that i couldnt be with her as a bf but as a friend and room mate.. i still talk to ray ray and shes a good beautiful person i love so much!. but then she lost her job and we ended up having to move out of the apartment by the river.. i miss that place to this day. So i ended up coming down to san antonio and staying with my mom and stepdad and my sister and her hubby going back and forth and working for my old boss that had the carnival stuff.

during that time i started talking to a girl on fubar.. i wont name her name .. im just gonna say the girl... that fucked me over.. she was supposed to come see me in san antonio.. we were together about 4 months or so .. and it turned out she went to see a friend from a lounge that talked to me daily.. called me bro.. .. and i found out what happened i was completely surprised.. maybe i shouldnt have been following my luck overall.

So I go on the road for my boss .. and go to delmar and other places in california working at the fairs.. and another girl from fubar was really sweet.. and beautiful and i adored her.. and well.. after my gig was done working in delmar i went there to her to be with her and her kids. things just didnt work out. i will not say why because she is still on fubar to this day . but the situation with her i did not feel safe for several reasons. 

Enter Jess.. i was djing in a lounge a country one of all places. and i met this girl that was from pawhuska.. the town i went to school in.. and turned out she was best friends with my twin brothers kids. lol she ignored me the first time.. but later i ran into her again and we started talking in chatbox and in the lounge. and i thought she was really cute. judy ann my brothers kids mom.. vouched for me.. and after a few months of talking i went down to her in pawhuska.  Since jess is still on fubar.. im not going to go too much into what all happened.. but i will say this.. me and her both made mistakes.. and i have to admit.. i love her and miss her so much.. it hurts so much to find out that things happened the way they did. and like she said.. things just werent working out.. after almost 4 years the relationship ended.. now.. im in san antonio.. starting my life over.. and trying to get a really good job ill know within the week if i have it.. and im staying with my mom and step dad.. and my aunt.. and spending time with my sister and nephews. and im looking into possibly going into school sometime.

I will update this stuff more in the future.