"Hey Jealousy" by the Gin Blossoms is a song dear to myself and my sisters. It's one of the few songs that totally define us or as we used to be.
In parenthesis, I'll explain as best I can why)
HEY JEALOUSY
Tell me do you think itd be all right
If I could just crash here tonight
You can see Im in no shape for driving
And anyway Ive got no place to go
(We were so screwed up that we felt there was no place for us. We often slept at everyone's home except our own. Sometimes because we were fucked up and other times because we were fucking around)
And you know it might not be that bad
You were the best Id ever had
(There's no one in this world that's better than my sisters.)
If I hadnt blown the whole thing years ago
I might not be alone
(We, especially I, fucked A LOT of things up back then. If we knew what we know now, it would've saved everyone some heartache.)
Tomorrow we can drive around this town
And let the cops chase us around
(Pretty self-explanatory. We'd always take off on impromptu road trips or just drive around for the fuck of it all. And quite often, cops did chase us around. Mainly because our stereo was on so loud that we never heard the siren until we finally got "manoevered" to the side.)
The past is gone but something might be found
To take its place...hey jealousy
(Like it says, the past is gone and that's 99% awesome. But every now and then, we wish we could be a little crazy like we were back then.)
And you can trust me not to think
And not to sleep around
If you dont expect too much from me
You might not be let down
Cause all I really want is to be with you
Feeling like I matter too
(We may have cheated on boyfriends [actually, I never did] but never on girlfriends and never with each other. We knew none of us had a lot to offer so we accepted what we got, no matter how little that might have been. Whatever we did was just to feel a little less empty for just a little while.)
If I hadnt blown the whole thing years ago
I might be here with you
Tomorrow we can drive around this town
And let the cops chase us around
The past is gone but something might be found
To take its place...hey jealousy
She took my heart
Theres only one thing I couldnt start
(My sisters took my heart in pain with all the misery we had no choice but to live through and they take my heart again everytime they live some more. Without them, I have no heart.)
Everyone goes through painful times but a huge portion of our lives was nothing but pain. We had no one to rely on besides ourselves and I know, without a doubt, that I would have been dead a long time ago if I didn't have my sisters. Life is great now and still, it's majorly because of them.
