Well, I am going out of my way this time. WAAAAAYY out of the way. Four states away! I'll tell you, though, I have never been as happy as I have the last 3 weeks...except for the birth of my son. This is CRAZY!!! You chat online, start talking on the phone, then....BAMM!!! Like a ton of bricks. It's that special feeling. Kind of like a warming agent for your heart. Now how often does that really happen? You get that emotional connection long before there is a physical one.
But what if it goes wrong? What if she doesn't like me? What if there is something she doesn't like? I think I would become a monk. Take a vow of celebacy. I want to be happy again. Like I have been in the past...only a little better. You want that out of any relationship....better than the last or the past. I know I do. If it means that I have to go four states away to be that happy again, then I will just have to put in the extra work to make sure my son is happy too. But he won't be happy, if his Daddy is miserable. I want him to see happiness, not misery. So, Joseph, Daddy's going to go be happy.(If it works out that way) Just hold my hand, son, and enjoy the ride.
