heartslozM T GT Rlozhearts's blog: "♥Heart Broken♥"

I'll follow you down to Where the green grass grows I'll follow you down to Where the willow tree branches hang low I'll follow you down to Where I last saw you smiling face I'll follow you down to Where we used to call our sacred place But your not there And your not here It seems to me I'm fallowing your shadow But I can't keep up And you're losing me Please set me free From following your memory You were the only one Who ever loved me You were the only one Who ever cared But now you've gone So far, far away Hopefully to be back one day If you come back home I won't be here I'll be gone Far away Never to return one day So follow me down to Where the green grass grows Follow me down to Where the willow tree branches hang low Follow me down to Where you last saw my smiling face Follow me down to Where we used to call our sacred place But I'm not here And I'm not there It seems to me You're following my shadow But you can't keep up And you're losing me I'll set you free From following my memory

Consumed by fear Blinded by pain Nothing to offer But this feeling of blame Many things were said And few were done Trusted by all Misguided by one Alone in this world As the people pass by With the look of agony And tears in their eyes Swallowed by hate Forgetting your love Paying this debt While you rest above Sometimes hearing What sounds like your voice A constant reminder It was always my choice Days pass me by As the pain grown strong Still your love is here My life seems so long Consumed by fear Blinded by pain Nothing to offer But this feeling of blame

You broke my heart in two And took me like a bet, with all you put me through I have so many regrets. To lose you was worth it, although I wasn't sure, it seemed to make me happy, but still so insecure. We always said Forever we would take it to the end never give it up but this time my heart couldn't mend. It cut so deep into me I guess it hurt you too but when you did it, then you lied I had to say "we're through." I gave you all I had I tried to make it last but now all we have are memories from the past. So look me in the eye and tell me what you see a girl so broke inside who's been through misery. And now Im moving on with the pain that kills inside but Im starting to forget by reminding myself, how you lied! I have somebody new someone to treat me right, to talk to lovingly and to hold on to all night. He's there for me when I need him to give me love and support to hold me close and wipe away all my signs of hurt. To kiss me softly every night and let me know he's there to call me just because, just tell me that he cares. Now here I go again fallen so hard, so deep but this time it's different, this is one I want to keep!

I hate looking myself in the mirror, I hate knowing I have fear. I hate seeing what isn't there, I hate feeling that I am scared. I hate believing what isn't true, I hate believing and trusting you. I hate crying myself to sleep, Forgive me for I have dreams. I feel left out and all alone, With no one to call my own. My eyes are red and I cry blood, Please help me or I'll cry a flood. My friends see what I let them see, If they only could see the true side of me. And as I die inside with pain, Please don't think that I'm insane. Cause believe it or not I have a heart, That's been slowly torn apart.

Told Me You Loved Me With All Your Heart Promised Me We'll Never Be Apart Called Me Your 1 And Only Sweetheart I Was Blindly In Love With You Even Callin You My Boo But You Thought You Could Have Two Didn't Think I'd Ever Have A Clue Or Did You Think It Wasen't That Big Of An Issue But I Must Leave I Wish You Wouldn't Have Decided Me You Should Have Known It Would Have Made Me Angry But I Still Dont Know Why Y'd Want To Play Me After All I Gave It To You Nightly You Said I Was Your Shorty Now Your Sayin That Your Sorry Telling Me That You Were Just Acting Silly But Believe That Barely I've Heard Better Stories Saying That Your Gonna Miss Me Dearly I Know I'll Miss U Calling Me Your Hunny And Being Cozy But I Know That Being With You Is Risky Now That I Know You Have A History You Like To Be Flirty,Having Lots Of Ladies

There's this guy...that i realy lyk...but he broke my heart...n now its in pieces...i had feelings for him...he said he had feelings 2...n told me everything n all of it sounded so good...it was lyk a fairy tale...but in tha end all he did was hurt me...he said he was guna wait 4 me...but he lied...he never told me he had a gurl...he said he didnt kno it wuld hurt me this much...he didnt tell me he had a gurl...i found out on my own...i've learned 2 NEVER CATCH FEELINGS 4 SUM ONE...THEY WILL BREAK YOUR HEART...and thats true...i got feelings 4 him..n all he did was hurt me...i'm still mad at him...but wat can i do...hes got a gurl...he dont care bout me...hes 2 busy with every one else...2 worry bout me...i fell 4 everything he told me...it hurts so much...he made me feel loved...tha way wanted 2...i didnt fall in Love...but i did do sumthin...4 it 2 hurt as much as it did...i felt sick i got a head ache...and it hurts 2 kno he has a gurl...he asked me if i wanted him 2 break up with her...inside i wanted 2 say yes...but i knew he probably wanted 2 be with her n she probably wanted 2 be with him...so i said no...i didnt tell him tha feelings i have 4 him...i couldnt...so i stayed mad at him...and i still am...i'm mad at tha fact that i cant be with him and that hes with her...but i kno i cant do nething bout it....now i have 2 face it...i dont kno if i can talk 2 him lyk i use 2...since hes got a gurl now...but thats lyfe 4 u...its never easy...lyfes always guna be hard...Love hurts so much...but sum one told me that..love isnt suppose 2 hurt...but it always hurts me...and i dont kno y...i kno i cant be with him...everything he has told me i still think bout everything...it all seemed so real...i cant help but cry sum tymes...cuz he hurt me soo much...i felt lyk i culd tell him ne thing n everything...but iono now...i mean i can still tell him things...but its not tha same now...nuthn is tha same between us now...hes gotta gurl so hes worried bout her...not me...that nite i could't explain how i felt...i felt lyk my heart was tookin away from me....lyk i never had a heart...i even cried...i didnt want 2...but it jus happened...we havent known each other very long but its been long enuff...4 me 2 catch feelings...everything was great then...but now its not..its changed its different...n i dont kno if i can deal with it...i mean i want him 2 be happy...but i jus cant see him with her...i dont kno y...i jus cant...he keeps tellin me hes sorry n everything...but its hard 2 believe him...i mean i want 2 but i jus cant believe him all tha way...he lied 2 me...he never told me that they where on n off...he told me they where broke up...he didnt say nething bout on & off but i guess i'll get through it....but iono how...i'm jus so confused rite now..i jus wish i was 18 already...so i wuldnt have 2 worry...n i culd be with him...but i got 4 more years 2 go...i wish it was sonner but its not guna be sonner...i mean i can go 4 years without a guy...cuz i dont need sum one...i jus wana feel loved...n i dont feel loved by my family...so i turn 2 others...but i do got friends who love me...so i can do it...and i dont need a boyfriend...i mean its nice...but i dont need 1...i'm happy bein single...but i kno he cant go 4 years without a gurl...even if we made a bet...he sill couldnt do it...but jus tha thought of him with her makes me sick 2 my stomach...i dont kno y...but it jus does...its hurts...it hurts so much....n wats worse is that he dont kno how i feel bout him...he jus thinks i lyk him n have feelings 4 him...but its more then that...i'll tell him 1 day...but iono...i mean tellin him now is not a good idea...since hes got a gurl...n everything...but ita always guna hurt..2 see him wth her...i think wat bothers me is that...i told him wat i thought bout her...n then he goes n dates her...so thats half tha reason...n tha other reason is that i make 1st impressions on every one...n iono i jus dont lyk her 4 sum reason...but in 4 years he culd be happily with sum gurl...or married...n its guna be hard...n everything...iono how i'ma get thourgh it...i jus dont kno...but i kno he can do better then her...i wana see him happy...jus not with her...iono y...i jus wish i knew y...n y i feel lyk this..n y i got these feelings 4 him....but i got them...n i cant get rid or them....no matter how hard i try...and i mite as well say it...she aint lookin lyk nuthn...lyk i told him...my cousin looks better then her n shes only 8 years old...but i mean he let me down...but i'm use 2 it...every body else in my lyfe does...so its no different now..then it use 2 be or shuld i say...still is