Its my birthday today and if things were the way I wish they were...I would be sitting here talking to you 6 months pregnant. I am making peace with it more and more but at times when I am reminded of the date and time of year....it reminds me of what I am missing. The best present would be having my baby back but THAT will never happen. I guess I am just gonna try to go out and have a good time and not let this loss bother me tonight. I HAVE to try to have some fun and heal.
