Annabanana's blog: "Grey matter"

As i sit,transfixed before this dark screen that holds the world before my fingertips i must wonder, out loud, and whisper, to the voices in my head (you are just jealous cause they only talk to me so shut up already jeez!)HMM HMM where was i oh yes u fd up my train of thought.is this a good thing or bad??The quest of good or evil?Jesus Christ or the anti-christ?Black or white yada yada yen and yang blah blah blah.All i know for sure is it sure puts me in touch with all the other crazies

She has the world singing at her feet,she hears only silence, every beauty imaginable is placed before her she sees only pain.The love of everyone she meets is hers to keep,she feels nothing but hate.It is not because she is uncaring or unfeeling, but she was beaten down too young and never quite understood how to get up again, so she goes on existing waiting for a peaceful end to the pain. Anna

If only you would allow me to hold you in my heart for just a moment,to taste your tears on my tongue,to let the light in your eyes and the warmth of your smile reflect upon my face.To grasp your soul and run with it and have you fully and completely trust that it will remain whole.To allow you to do the same,this would bring inner peace.I have searched this cold world for your warmth.Your dulled senses have finally opened and allowed my silent yet deafening cries through.I have willed you to come to me.Now that we are together.I believe that we are one perfect creature,yes the outside world if allowed to glimpse us would insist that we are. WADDA LODE OF SHIT

Iam longing so desperately to go back to sleep,but the squishy stuff between my ears will not allow that one certain pleasure.The static in my brain is buzzing at a noise decible that is not condusive to easy listening pleasure.I think i'll call the doctor and put that frontal lobotomy on easy payment plans. I can always forget later that i even owe the bill.