I have dreamed of this day for so many many years..
Tonight I finally got to chat with my daughter who I havent been able to see or talk to since she was a year old.
I can't explain how happy it made me .. the closest I can think of how to describe it is the way I felt the day she was born... seeing her make her way into the world, holding her in my arms and feeling like God himself had blessed me with so much happiness and love that it seemed like it should be almost illegal or something..
I haven't yet seen a picture of what she looks like now but I will soon.. and I am going to send her a microphone and webcam so I can see my lil' angel more often.. or as often as I possibly can..
She knew who I was, her mom had talked to her about me (which I can't lie .. did surprise me greatly) I just wish I could have been more of a part of her life... I wish I could have been there to see her during her birthdays, christmas's , school functions, and well every other day ... just so I could hug her, tuck her into bed at night, help her with her school work, and to tell her that daddy loves her with all of his heart and soul... I carry her picture with me EVERY DAY AND EVERY WHERE I GO.. she is, was and will ALWAYS be my BEAUTIFUL, PRECIOUS LIL ANGEL...
I love my daughter so very much and will never forget the day she was born, and tonight ..
This is by far without a doubt the happiest that I have been in almost 10 years.. Kristin, thank you for the greatest christmas present ever.. I can't thank you enough.. And Hannah.. MY GOD SENT ANGEL.. DADDY LOVES YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD.. YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AND WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED MY YOUR DADDY.. I AM SO PROUD TO CALL YOU MY DAUGHTER.. YOU ARE SO VERY SMART AND CANT TELL YOU HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME ..
THANK YOU FOR THE TIME YOU SPENT TALKING TO ME TONIGHT.. YOU HAVE MADE ME THE HAPPIEST MAN ON EARTH..
SHORT POEM FOR MY LIL ANGEL HANNAH MARIE..
TONIGHT I CRIED SO VERY MANY TEARS OF JOY,
MEMORIES OF THE DAY YOU WERE BORN FLOODED MY HEAD,
YOUR FIRST BIRTHDAY, THE CLOTHES AND THE TOYS.
CARRYING YOU IN MY ARMS, CHANGING YOUR DIAPERS AND PUTTING YOU TO BED.
NOT A SINGLE DAY WOULD GO BY THAT I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT YOU,
SHOWING YOUR PICTURE TO MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND ANYONE ELSE THAT I'D SEE,
I DO WANT YOU TO KNOW HANNAH, YOU ARE MY LIL ANGEL AND MY LOVE FOR MY BABY GIRL IS TRUE.
IF YOU EVER NEED ANYTHING HANNAH, DONT BE SCARED TO ASK.. FOR YOU ID GIVE MY LIFE TO MAKE UP FOR NOT BEING THERE IN THE PAST BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOUR DADDYS LOVE WILL LAST FOR ETERNITY!!!!!!!
HANNAH MARIE YOU ARE MY BABY GIRL AND I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH .. MORE THAN YOU CAN EVER IMAGINE.. I WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, THINGS YOU'VE DONE, HOW YOUR DAYS HAVE BEEN, IF YOU GET SICK, GET ANGRY, THINGS YOU LIKE TO EAT, TV SHOWS YOU LIKE TO WATCH, GAMES YOU LIKE TO PLAY, EVERYTHING AND I MEAN EVERYTHING THAT MAKES YOU WHO YOU ARE TODAY.. I REGRET MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD NOT BEING THERE FOR YOU IN THE PAST.. BUT I DO TRULY HOPE THAT I CAN BE MORE INVOLVED IN YOUR LIFE.. I MISSED OUT ON ALMOST 9 YEARS AND IT'S BEEN SO PAINFUL FOR ME ..
AND 1 MORE THING TO YOU HANNAH AND YOUR MOM..
THANK YOU SO VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH FOR MAKING THIS A CHRISTMAS THAT I WILL FOREVER REMEMBER.. YOU TWO HAVE MADE ME HAPPIER THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN SINCE THE DAY MY LIL ANGEL WAS BORN..
LOVE YOU HANNAH MARIE.. MY LIL ANGEL
