I've made a lot of mistakes in my life and I will be the first to admit that. Although I made these mistakes, I know that I have been tolerant, understanding, and very hurt throughout the entire ordeal. I wanted nothing more than to feel "normal" again. I wanted to actually wake up in the morning with a smile on my face and my cheeks NOT streaked with tears.
For the longest time, I felt like it was never really MY home too. I felt like it was too hard to really open up to this person like I used to because their attitude toward me had changed a lot over the years. I felt that anytime I expressed my real emotions, it was just blown off.
I *do* have my priorities straight. Trust me, I do. For the longest time, he was my #1 priority despite the hurt I was feeling. This time, my #1 priority is ME.
I'm not going to sit here and type out everything because it would be a waste of time and the last thing I need right now is even more drama.
He was my lover, then became my best friend, and always was my hero, but under these circumstances, I have no choice but to say good bye. I will always care for him because of the history we have together, and I hope that one day we will be able to be friends again... but until then, I wish him all the best and good bye...
