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So apparently my so called brother's side chick was bitchin about shit I was playing at the club over the weekend. Instead of coming to me or my brother she bitches to the owners who then yell at us. Seriously? If you cant keep your side chick under control she needs to not come to the club and everything cause im sorry i was playing what I was told to fucking play. And if you have a problem with the damn music go to the DJ not the owners. The owners have no say on what songs are played. She only wants to bitch when Im playing music because shes got beef with me. So guess what bitch, you're number's up sweetheart.
Someday I`ll Sleep eternal sleep
Someday I`ll live a dream
Someday the night surround me
And in my mind`s eye gleam
Someday I`ll sink into his arms
Someday he`ll hold me true
Someday I`ll walk in colored lands
Where all the skies are blue
Someday he`ll pluck me from this world
Someday he`ll take me home
Someday the cost of living
Will be worth the road I roam
Someday he`ll set me free
And he`ll wrap me tight in his embrace
Then all there`ll be is me
Silence rings within my ears.
A hollow echoing in four chambers,
of my weary heart.
A fiery chill invades my soul.
Numbs my spine and frosted skull.
My hold loose grasped upon this world.
My grip even now
begins to lose its strength.
All the world is changing.
I watch through tearless eyes,
As I abide the rising tide.
Ever struggling not to get wet.
I with careful scrutiny,
survey the coming change.
Disinterested in the change itself.
I only watch the progress,
looking for an open spot,
that I may use to jump back in again.
I cannot hide forever.
I sit here and think
why do i have to sink
always seen as the disgraced
my mind is just misplaced.
I sit here and stare
the blood is dripping so beware
my heart is pounding fast
as i think about the past
Blood is surrounding me
how can this be?
I blink and look
Was it all just in the book?
No blood
emotions are a flood.
I'd like to welcome you to my life.
Heres another poem i wrote a few years ago:
Everday
Everyday I scream
Why?
I scream because you leave
Everyday I cry
Why?
I cry because of the pain he caused
Everyday I dream
Dream of what?
I dream everything is nothing but an illusion
Everyday I die
Why?
I die because of my hunger for your love
So i've been thinking about starting back up with my poetry....dunno if i should or not though because it shows a more indepth sight of me and my mind. Not all of my poems Rhyme. heres a little example of one of my poems:
Not Really Me
Those who see me stop and stare
'Who is she' they think and ponder
They only see the outside me not inside
I'm not the innocent girl they think me to be
I've changed over the years
I'm not the little girl who used to be scared
I've become stronger, physically and mentally
I'm not really me
I've been hurt; Ive become stronger
I've been in fights; I've become tougher
I've been loved; L've become happier
I've been lonely; I've become independant
I've been on my own; I've become a survivor
So now you see
I'm a totally new me
So yesterday we started little one on her growth hormone injections. We are looking at her being on these injections until she is around 18..... School is hectic.....life is just hectic in general.......
Ok so i am dating this guy who is about to go into the navy. I live with him and everything. I feel as if im floating on the clouds when im around him. I mean, he is a good guy and all but i dont know if i can handle him being gone all the time. I've told him i loved him and he said it back. but what if things change while he is gone over seas and everything with the navy? We also talked about getting married and everything but what if when he gets back or while he is gone things are totally different between us? What am I to do? He is only 19 years old and i am 20. is this a big mistake or is it meant to be?
