Affynity's blog: "Goddess of Jasper Red Rantings and Ravings"

To all of my friends, Family, and Anyone else that happens to read the shit that spews forth from my keys: Thanks for being there for me, even though I haven't been around alot. I still get on and check messages and comments. If I have time I will respond to them all. I hate the fact that I don't hang out here as much as I used to because I have managed to find some pretty cool people here on fubar that are entertaining and very true to heart. I have a full time Job and I am also a full time student at the local college. I am also a Doggie mother and a maid. My schedule is full to the brim. Some things have been put on the back burner, and fubar is regretfully one of them I will try to get on more often. Feel free to leave comments I will get to you all EVENTUALLY! Mistress

ARE YOU: 1. A cuddler: Yes 2. Tall: Nope 5' 5'' 3. In your pajamas: Not atm but I will be soon they are my favorite Clothes 4. Left handed: Nopers LAST: 1. Friend you saw: Cathy 2. Person you talked to on the phone: Jason my Hubby 3. Friend you texted: Jase 4. Thing you wore: Pants and a Hooded sweater it is May and Fucking Cold FAVORITE: 1. Number: 34 2. Season: Spring 3. Flower: Red Carnation QUESTIONS & ANSWERS: Q: What was the first thing you did this morning? Get Dressed and go to Work Q: Do you have anything bothering you? Yes...Too Complicated to get into here Q: What's the last movie you watched and with who? Crocodile Dundee My hubby Q: Where is the last place you went? The Mud Bogs Q: Who is your current crush? My Hubby Q: Do you wish upon stars? Every night Q: Are you a friendly person? Very some say overly friendly Q: Where did u sleep last night? my bed Q: What color shirt are you wearing? grey Q: When was the last time you cried? This morning Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night? Man I am sleepy...why am I not asleep 13. When was the last time you took a long drive? Dec. All the way from Tx to Nv 14. What is your favorite smell? Fire and Ice for men 15. Are you moody? Yes...Make me mad and you will see 16. What is your most favorite movie of all time? LadyHawke 17. Have you ever done anything hurtful to a signifigant other? Yes...I regret it everyday 18. Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? Yes I hate that game I get stuck kissing the Dork 19. Have you ever toilet papered someones house? Lol favorite Halloween Pastime in a small town 20. Have you ever had a crush on your sister's BF? Nope Don't got a sister 21. Have you ever gone to a beach? Yes Just last summer Copy My survey and Post your own answers

Vampire Vampire; Sinking teeth, Ripping flesh, hunger blood-lust sweet surrender. I can see your blood sweet and thick coursing through your veins, No need to tell me your thoughts I can read your pains. Darkness my only cover, you know in your mind I'm your one true lover. Deaths sweet kiss upon your neck, your blood tastes sweeter only because you can't keep your fear in check. Now your once creamy completion turns pale, I know my fatal bite did not fail. As I hold you in My arms too feel the last shallow breaths slowly leave your body, Now don't you wish you hadn't been so naughty? In my minds eye I see you walking threw pergatory's gate, the final destiny of your true fate. I see now that I may never get enough of this life, Putting mortals threw Pain and strife. Darkness is my friend, now I know that my heart will never end.

The First Like Sun swept Hues of morning Fire, His touch lights an already Kindled desire. Having faith in his experience, I let him lead my Blissful ignorance. A loving embrace ebbs the pain that I know that I must face. Internal hope flickers in the love that we share, Tender with almost apprehensive care. Bracing for the final stirring of emotion, I give him my heart with full devotion.

Love is Happiness Love is forgiving, but never forgets someday someone says something the other regrets. True as Fiction love holds no bounds but, no matter what is said things come crashing from above right to the ground. Everything seems fine to the outside world, but looks can be deceiving, and what is said both partners are grieving. Wanting to say sorry and forget the hurt full words but sorry doesn't mend the hole in your heart, so you keep your mouth shut to heal the broken part. Never the right words do I find, so I hope these words help the broken parts to bind. I love you very much, I shudder at your touch. I don't know what I'd do if you were not there..., so when you be my trial judge and jury please be fair. Jason I love you!

Land of Nod The Land of Nod awaits, as the sand in Mr. Sandman's hourglass separate. As you slowly drift into anon, your body grows still and you start to dream of things, that have passed, which are gone. Your Sub-Conscious mind surfaces sending you conscious in to oblivion, and your dreams start, you choose the perfect role, the perfect part. Night flies by, and dawn wipes the stars from the sky. When you awake you tell the tale that your dreams do make.

Borrowed Time One young girls contempt for her life, poor neglected, totally socially rejected. Looked on as an outcast of society, couldn't tell you the ;meaning of sobriety. Drugs and Alcohol her only escape, never worried about the coroner and the yellow police tape. One hit to many; overdose killed her and took her out of her misery, hounds of hell took'er, they made a special delivery. Her parents cried and wondered why she did it, and were sorry that she died. The friends that she never made, used her for and example, so they wouldn't have to pay the price that she paid. Prevention is the key, but information is what they should be offering. Different reasons for your addiction, but the outcome for all are the same. If you don't turn it around we can all make the same prediction. Death is not the answer, life is the dream of the true romancer.

What You Mean to Me.. You are my candle in the dark, My hearts one true spark. I need you all to myself yet I want to share you with the moon, I hope that what we have never ends too soon. You are the man of my affection, No mater if what I say and do causes misdirection. Lead me where you will, Everything that you are makes my heart stop, stand up and be still. I love you for who you are and what you have done, Baby you are my only one.

Love is Lost Emotional scars never heal, They always find a way to control how you feel. Love is supposed to be unconditional and free, I guess that isn’t something that is for me. It’s my entire fault I did it to myself, Now he has put his love for me up on the shelf. I guess in his mind it is over, There is no love in the clover. Help me to see this is right, Let me know that I have lost the fight. I love him still, And I always will. He has chosen a side that I am not on, He wants me out so I am gone.

Hate Love I hate the way I feel today, Why have my emotions gone astray? I hate the way my love has lost, It hurts too much I can’t pay the cost. My heart was once full to bursting, Now all it all is acid and cursing. I have no love like before, Where it has gone I will never be sure. It started out wrong with a girl, who won’t be named, All that can do is add to her fame. Bitch is what I will call, She has taken my world and destroyed it all. I have faith that I am wrong, This love I have is supposed to be eternally long. I promise that I will fix what I have done, She is right she has won. Tana D. Stoddard April, 26, 2007