Mz Infinite Blue's blog: "Give Up"

Even if people are around me, No matter where I go, I’m still alone, In the abyss I am; my horizon is to faraway from home, Discarded by fate that I’m afraid to trust again, as I tremor in fear, I don’t know if I could take that pain again…. the sorrow and the tears, Memories that are keeping me a prisoner of time, Illusions that are making my eyes go blind, My soul is bleeding out, it has been slain, Fallen and crawling in blood, my heart has an eternal stain, I’ve shed a river that within me there’s nothing left, No fountain of youth but a fountain of death, Sitting under the grueling rain and a black rose in my hand, In and over my head getting sucked in like quick sand, Dissolving into the never where life’s slowly tainting me away, I’m using every inch of my breath just to make another day, Alone I’ll be under the starless sky with a black cloud on top, With death just gazing at me waiting for my number to come up, I fight so hard to find my place of ease, But I guess I never will because melancholy is what was destined for me

Depressed and anxious Stable but obnoxious Speechless yet eager to be argumentive Selfishly wanting to give Something you will lose forever Afraid of what you might uncover About yourself.....something unknown Perhaps you may have never shown How you truly feel instead of portraying what you thought was actually real It probably was every bit as we saw it for what it was Love is amazing... no matter what it does To the people it may consume right before Spring, when love is in full bloom Or what happens when it's done When you realize they are actually gone You miss what you remember, about all of their own beauty Trying not to feel sorry, not looking for anyone's pity You say good-bye This may hurt.....but we both will know why

The fight inside .... Broken glass on the ground My head is spinning as my heart pounds And I can't help that when I see the moon No, I can't help that I think of you My knuckles bruised, bloodied and bare Fighting for nothing Just to see if you care I've been beaten down one too many times But now I think I'm going to finally let it die Because when I was up at 2 a.m. You were sleeping soundly in your bed And when my heart was bleeding You hardly noticed that I bled All of this for you I gave Self-sacrifice, day after day But now I'm done, I say no more Today is the day that I walk out that door

I can no longer feel I no longer care I just sit still and quietly stare the world around us lives so fast so hard so quick to forgive the words the scars why try to move on when you never truly do the same thoughts always lurk and the truth finds you give up just quit don't give a fuck don't give a shit just die let live don't lie or forgive

Hello it's me, have you missed me? I've missed you As a matter of fact I never stopped Thinking about us it's been you all along maybe that makes no sense maybe it doesn't need to There is something inside me that just won't let us die something that refuses to leave Do you feel the same way or am I just being crazy that after all this time you never left my heart and I never left, yours and that we are always drawn ...to each other Don't let go because I haven't For reasons heaven knows