HMV MISTRESS FIRE LETTE's blog: "Getting better"

Hello Everyone:

This is not going to be long at all. FIRST off I wanted to apologize to everyone for misleading. It has been 6 years for me on Fubar. I had one prior account. That account was deleted by myself at the urging of my boyfriend at the time. THIS action will not be repeated. I have burned up an apartment, moved out of Leonardtown, MD, moved to California, MD, moved out of there and St. Mary's Co. all together, moved in with my grandmother's to help her out (More like living in complete and utter hell), moved out then moved into a much safer enviroment. Yes it was a homeless shelter. However, this is unlike any other ones you may know. They have a zillion of activities to learn to grow, mature and live an independent life. 

Now at the shelter I learned way more than I could possibly have anywhere else. I lived there for 5 months. After there I went into their Willow House program. I lived there for an additional 7 months. Now while there I graduated from the Building Employment Success Training (B.E.S.T.) program. I learned a lot about administration duties and other support services. I was in their "PILOT" class of 8. And graduated with State and Federal recognition. After completing that I stayed at the Willow House while I looked for active employment. This was in Anne Arundel Co. Md. 

For the major part of the last part of the year I grew in leaps and bounds. Hey speaking of bounds..... I learned a neat thing called bounderies. And how to use them. Imagine that right? LMAO!!!!

My son ventured off.... 

He moved to Huron and summoned me to move. "Mother, you spent 21 years of your life dedicating and sacrificing your life for me. You took care of a very challenging child and made him into a man. It is my turn to take care of you." Im damned proud of him. I cried like a sissy bitch. Yea I am capable of water works. HEY I AM HUMAN!!! LMAO!!! So, I packed up my things in a U-haul truck. Which I might add was a very enjoyable ride. Went from Anne Arundel Co. MD to Beadle Co. SD. Took 26 hours but I got here. HOWEVER, I was in a Zombie like state. Got sick for over a month. Now I am sitting here typing this thing. 

 

So in a nutshell I have been feverishly working hard in making my life better. 

 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEE ALL MY FRIENDS PLEASE READ!!!!!!!! This day has really been awesome. I got RockBand video game for the PS2, I got a 97.7 The Rocket T shirt that I have wanted TERRIBLE!!!! SMOKIN JOE DON"T WORRY ABOUT IT NOW!!!!!!!!!!! :P Got an Praying Angel Porcelain Doll, got money and got movies, along with a George Foreman grill a new purse from Victoria's Secretes, and a beach thing. I am in fucking heaven. OH and I got a shit loads of HAPPY BIRTHDAY From the mightiest of friends here. YOU ALL FUCKING ROCK THE DAMNED HOUSE DOWN!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!! <3 <3 <3 On a much more personal note, I was able to vent all my anger, frustrations, and emotions that I have been feeling directly towards the person that it was directed to. That was the gift I gave to myself. I LOVE IT!!!!! And he apparently was on the up and up with me. He did EXACTLY what I asked (more like told) him to do. And now my 40th, yes 40 and hush up I know I don't look it, ( :P ) I feel like a totally new person. On the 28th will be my final gift. My new look. I cannot wait. I will keep people updated. I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

WHEW!!! What a great past few days that I have had. I found out what is going to be going on with my "Cosmetic" proceedure. lmao I say that jokingly because it is something that I have desperatly needed for a while. And very excited about it. The other day, I found out that my Ex thinks that I am a "WHORE"..... Now if that be true, which it is NOT I would be loaded with money all over the place. I am NOT all that but, I am pleasing to the eyes to some. At anyrate, I find it rather amusing that people use such words in the wrong context and still claim themselves as highly intelegent. LMAO Considering that HE did NOT graduate till he was 21 years old. *SNORTS* And furthermore, HE dropped out of college. Why? BECAUSE HE IS THAT DAMNED LAZY. lmaoooooooo I cannot wait till I get my net back because, I found out that he has been talking other shit about me as well. And when the people that he has talked about me to meet and get to know me better then the pie is going to be on HIS face. I don't have to stoop to his level of immaturity but, I can make it very uncomfortable for him to be on Camfrog. People that KNOW me KNOWS better than to take what he is saying as face value. And all the people that talk to me love me for me and nothing else. Caring, loving, appreciating, embracing, being a TRUE FRIEND, compassionate, warm hearted, warm, faithful, respectful, and honesty makes a good person. Those qualities are what make me shine. These items were spoken to me about me from a "REAL FRIEND". And vouched by many others. I was appreciative to those people that have been good to me through all this. And I LOVE THEM SO DAMNED MUCH TOO...... Each of you know who you are. <3 <3 <3 Damned I am so lucky to have you all in my life. I am truly blessed. THANK YOU ALL!!! At anyrate, I am done rambling. Hope you all are doing great. Please comment and rate this. I know it is lengthy and rather dramatic but hell. At least I am not bottling it up inside and I want to publically show how fortunate I am to have great people in my life. <3

Today I sit here with nothing but, love and joy in my heart yet again. After a great rally of friends to support me and what I have to do for myself..... I found the love that was missing. That was my friends in my heart. I found this out not to terribly long ago. My friends just sat and waited on the "DOOM" of a relationship. Josh really out did himself with them. So much so that they all have made me promise to them all, with the removal of friendship shall I go against, that I shall never go back to Josh again. They all were rather pissed off that he blocked me from talking to them. And some of his own friends as well. He controlled me like that. I am ashamed of myself for allowing him to do that to me and to innocent others. Josh really needs to learn to grow the fuck up in my eyes. He really needs to step back and take a long hard look at himself and see what EVERYONE saw. His OWN immaturity. Everyone was simply amazed at the length that the relationship lasted. We did do ONE thing. And that was surpassed everyone expectiations. And with that note, I went on my first date in a LONG ASSED TIME.... *giggles* and has a whipping assed good time too. I relaxed, watched some movies, talked and well..... Whipped someone into shape.... THAT was a blast right there in itself. :P This weekend I have much of the same planned out but, going to dinner with someone and then going to the movies with someone else. I am so self confedient (sp?) right now.... I am beginning to see what other say about me. That I am not only beautiful on the outside but, inside as well. So, I am going to be busy for a while. AND, my son is on his way home. Tomorrow he will be here. YAYYYYYYYYYYY Oh, snap, almost forgot. I have a job interview tomorrow. :P I cannot wait. I am hoping to get at least 20 good hours in a week. At least to start out with. And in the near future getting another job if they cannot increase my hours in good time. So, here it is. My latest update. This will also go to my Vampire and Myspace blogs as well. *GIGGLES*