No one reads this so im not sure why i write in here but anyway
I havent been feeling well
Well i didnt really tell everyone this just a few close people
im kinda nervous about getting my lisence i kinda fell asleep at the wheel while me and my mom were coming back from the grocery store i almost drove up on the curb and well i had so many mental images of what could have happened it scared the hell outta me and still scares me now i dont want to be that responsible im not ready for that
I could kill someone if i make a mistake i dont care if my truck breaks or what i just dont wanna hurt anyone i couldnt live with myself
Well anyway i didnt think it was possible but my mom made me feel like 1000x worse for not having a job
ok heres the story how
Renee wanted to go out with one of her friends to see a lacrosse game that her friends brother was in. She keeps asking my grandmother if she can take the car my mom-mom was like No! go ask your mother and my mom was telling her it was up to my mom-mom which she kept saying no go ask your mother (i think my mom should have just said no) but then renee some how brought up the fact that she doesnt have a car and i do. I guess she really didnt gather the fact that i do pay for it ( my mom told her that for me) but shes like im gonna quit my job i hate it there (i dunno why itz like $10/hr) and the thing is me and my mom went down to the video store (she wanted to see Flight 93 and United 93 i was gonna rent a game called Saints Row but i couldnt cuz i needed a credit card :( ) but she also told me that the electric bill was skipped a couple of times so yeah i maybe getting a check every month but the thing is the money isnt spent on just me its spent on my family i would love to go out buy a new game i would love to have gotten renee that PS2 i promised her id get her but the way she throws around money (that she spends on herself) she should go buy it herself she could get a car herself
The thing is i want a job So i can give more money to the house things need to get done
