Cari's blog: "fuck everything!!!"

If I was who I wanted to be Then a different women would be standin before you Not known where im goin but ashamed of where I been Too afraid to go back there again Cant escape from a past riddled with sin You gotta be strong is what they say to me God forgives but depends if you believe Sometimes I think there is no hope for me My pedigree says im headed to the penitentiary And if I dont keep my head above water Then I fear for the slaughter The rath of the demon inside me That comes from the dark place that arose from the tragedy The pain that has scattered me the pain In my soul Lets me know that the women in the mirror is mad at me In the shadows I walk the line between good and evil All the hurt that I caused see thru the flaws I be the cause Theres pain in my eyes an

i wanna break but i cant break from u i break down as my heart breaks to pieces but the pieces that shatter upon the ground are long dead and do not make no sound just tears shed for a love lost but was it ever love if so at what cost every love song i hear reminds me of us every time i turn on the radio i wonder why wasnt i enough who can i trust enough wit love im done wit love some say your heart breaks because ur not strong enough i say it breaks becase i love too much but that feeling goes unshared cuz im loved not enough

I fuckin hate it when im ignored...i cant take the fuckin bullshit anymore...ppl make me wanna jus crawl in a fuckin hole and die...and i dont even think no one would fuckin care...i mean seriously if someone says they love you...and they dont call or return your phone calls or they dont come over...your the one expected to do everything...fuck im done with it all for good....