CROW's blog: "for the peculiar people and then some"

i found this blog and seemed like something to share :)

i found it at this link  http://www.klove.com/blog/post/2010/12/09/Advent-Calendar-Post-for-December-9.aspx

There was once a man who did not believe in the virgin birth of Christ or the spiritual meaning behind it.  He didn’t understand all the focus on Jesus at Christmas time.  He was even skeptical there was a God who loved him. 

He and his family lived in a farm community. His wife was a devout believer and diligently raised her children in the faith. He sometimes gave her a hard time about her belief and mocked her reverence of Christmas.  "It's all nonsense -- why would God lower himself and become a human like us? It's such a silly story," he said.

One snowy December day, his wife and the children left for church while he stayed home. After they had departed, the winds grew stronger and the snow turned into a blinding snowstorm. He sat down to relax before the fire for the evening.

Then he heard a loud thump, something hitting against the window... And, still another thump. He looked outside but could not see anything. So he ventured outside for a better view. In the field near his house he saw, of all the strangest things, a flock of geese. They were apparently flying to look for a warmer area down south, but they had been caught in the snowstorm. The storm had become too blinding and violent for the geese to fly or see their way. They were stranded on his farm, with no food or shelter, unable to do more than flutter their wings and fly in aimless circles. He had compassion for them and wanted to help them. He thought to himself, the barn would be a great place for them to stay. It is warm and safe; surely they could spend the night and wait out the storm. So he opened the barn doors for them.

He waited, watching them, hoping they would notice the open barn and go inside. Nevertheless, they did not notice the barn or realize what it could mean for them. He moved closer toward them to get their attention, but they just moved away from him out of fear.

He went into the house and came back with some bread, broke it up, and made a bread trail to the barn. They still did not catch on.

Starting to get frustrated, he went over and tried to shoo them toward the barn. They panicked and scattered into every direction except toward the barn. Nothing he did could get them to go into the barn where there was warmth, safety, and shelter. Feeling totally frustrated, he exclaimed, "Why don't they follow me? Can't they see this is the only place where they can survive the storm? How can I possibly get them into the one place to save them?"

He thought for a moment and realized that they just would not follow a human. He said to himself, "How can I possibly save them? The only way would be for me to become like those geese. If only I could become like one of them. Then I could save them. They would follow me and I would lead them to safety." 

His words reverberated in his mind.   

If only I could become like one of them, then I could save them.  

Suddenly, everything his wife had lived and said in front of him filled his heart.  Jesus became a man to save mankind. 

He fell to his knees in the snow.

*this is something that was shared with me. i though i'd pass it along. i hope it helps someone one day :) *

Reason, Season and Lifetime


People always come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.
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When someone is in your life for a REASON, It is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a godsend to you, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they just walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.
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When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends.
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LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway) and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being part of my life.

john 3:16 - 21

¹⁶ “For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. ¹⁷ God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through him. ¹⁸ “There is no judgment against anyone who believes in him. But anyone who does not believe in him has already been judged for not believing in God’s one and only Son. ¹⁹ And the judgment is based on this fact: God’s light came into the world, but people loved the darkness more than the light, for their actions were evil. ²⁰ All who do evil hate the light and refuse to go near it for fear their sins will be exposed. ²¹ But those who do what is right come to the light so others can see that they are doing what God wants.

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this is a little bit about me. i'm not sure where to start actually. normally i'm a very private person,but i was given the conviction to not be quite so private,mysterious and hard to get to. i recieved this confirmation/conviction today due to my recent rejection by all of my friends,family and my most dearest friend i have ever had in my whole lifetime. i am a christian now. it has taken me over 30 years before i asked god into my life. im probably not considered a newbie christian anymore,but i'm not sure what the criteria is for that. i still feel like one lol. i'm not educated or scholarly in those things. i have always been genuine with people,but very hard to reach. i am changing that because i was asked to do so,hence this blog. it's not somthing i'd normally do ever,but it must be done.
i am part japanese and was raised buddhist by my japanese mom. my father was raised christian,but i don't ever recall him practicing christianity. i never knew if he believed in god or ever asked god into his life to be saved. so i may never know. i don't know how heaven works. i don't know if we will recognise friends and family in heaven as we did on earth,but i think it would be nice because i sure do miss a lot of people who i know are in heaven. i pray for the ones who won't make it,but they all still have a chance.
i will try not to drag this out because i can be boring and long winded in matters when things start to flow. i will do my best to keep it concise and try to update things later as they come along or if i think i left something out.
all my life i have always been shunned by people and them doing hurtful things. i am very use to that. i attract al things to me,but for so long mostly i only remember negativity to me. i think some of that is where i get my standoffish stance on things. i have been hurt so often by so many people that it's hard to warm up to peeps and let them all the way in.
i havn't done well in relationships. all of my girlfriends have dumped me for another guy. i never understood that. i use to always think it was them,but sometimes when i reflect on things i wonder if it was me. i still don't know. i'm definitely not perfect by any means and will never claim that. i make so many mistakes on a regular basis it's not funny.
i guess because i have been dealt so much harshness growing up and throughout my lifetime that i am hard on the exterior and i really don't mean to be.
over the years as an adult i have been humbled many time,but has always been without god. i can say that god is hard lol,but easy at the same time. it really takes conviction and a lot of work to be like god as he wishes. i think the last 10 years i have been polishing up some,but i havnt been a christian that long though. i'm just saying polishing in general. i didn't come to christ until april 8,2006 and even then it wasn't 100%. i may post anothe blog one day on how it happened,but not now. it happened though. i was wishy washy for a while. i think in the last 4 years maybe,not sure on the timeframe,i have become closer to god slowly. it's been a hard road. i know for sure i have been broken by god atleast 3 times. april 9,2009 was the most recent. i have learned so much in last several years,but possibly the most specifically this year. i can say a lot of frustrating and hurtful things for sure,but are things that needed to happen i know. there is much more to come for sure.
backtracking some... i have 2 young male children,however i havnt seen them or my adulterer ex-wife since middle of 2005. i know one day i will see my two children again one day. i just wish i didn't miss so much of their childhood. you don't get that back. i can only hope that maybe it's because they needed better support than what i may have been able to possibly give at the time...and that maybe they are getting it now by a better man. even though it was done in sin. i have no idea why it happened,well actually i do in a way lol. basically it boiled dwon to the fact i was ignoring god's call to me. i was too busy in life and the materialistic things on earth that will perish. what god did for me was literally take EVERYTHING away from me. no joke...everything. that definitely was a hard time. veru shortly after that my father and grandfather passed on the same day,but in different states. there was a lot more going on that i won't say here now,but it was a mess. i have been compared to job/jobe many times by all walks of life in how my life has gone and also my "supposed" patience lol. i don't know where they see that,but was what they said.
i have a lot going on right now. i know some of it is my fault,but also some of it are things that must happen 1st in order for other things to happen. i have to say this patiently waiting for this to happen is frustrating lol,but i can deal with it. god won't give u anything you can't handle,it's just a matter of whether you seek god for help with the matters because he will answer any request sincerly stated in jesus name. some people that know me understand what i mean by the power of prayer. in some ways i feel funny or weird talking about this stuff. it's not normally me being this open about things because i'm more private. i know some people will joke me and such,but that is of no concern. i'm use to the meaness of the world. i have know that since a young child all through my life. even right now,ever friend or family that i have left(in real life) has turned their backs on me. i have done nothing to wrong them,but i do forgive them. i know i have some nice online friends,but in the earthly manner i do truly feel alone at this juncture. the only comfort i have now and i guess is really all that matter is i have god. god is love and always there. when we sincerely ask in jesus name he will always be there.
i can truly say,that the average person would have killed themselves a long time ago if they were in my shoes. no one will ever have a clue or any idea of what i have gone through and continue to witness in my life here. the only person who has ever gotten anywhere close and actually understood a lot of it is my dear friend warrior cwen. besides god she has been my rock. i truly do love her and appreciate her friendship,love and companionship she has showed and bestowed upon me. i am so lucky to have such a person like her in my life! no one to this day has ever understood me like she does and has witnessed the chaos and calamities of my life lol. i feel so bad for her,to have put her through so much. i do apologise to her for that and hope that she can forgive me one day for subjecting her to those things. we have learned so much from the experience so that is the plus side for sure.
 I TRULY LOVE THE WARRIOR CWEN WITH ALL OF MY HEART UNCONDITONALLY!
i'm not sure what else to put in here right now. maybe some people can offer suggestions in fumail as well as comments.
i hope that i never push anyone away from god because of me possibly being to zealous! i do know that sometimes though because it says in the bible,that he will harden people's hearts because he knows what's in side them and it must be that way. god will give u every chance to redeem yourself with him even on your deathbed! i hope i am never the cause of pushing peeps away from god.
sorry for this being so long. i will add more by editing this or maybe just someupdates. not sure...
also...
i'm not sure how i'm going to handle my profile yet. i have made changes partly by recommendations from god and some on my part,but i was given a conviction of keeping my profile locked for a period of time. i don't know what that period of time is atm. i am waiting for the confirmation to release my profile public again.
thanks for taking the time to read this.
oh...and in my previous blogs,you will see where my mother and grandmother landed in icu basically at the same time. i thought i was gonna lose them both like my father and grandfather. basic update now. my mom is doing a tad better,but still a long way to go :)
hugz to all!

lets see. im adding more i just remembered lol.

i resisted god for a long time even though i felt him. i even had strangers i never knew from anyone prophecy to me about things. i kinda blew em off even though in my mind i kinda believed em,but i still resisted jesus. all of the prophecies from strangers came to pass lol. when i was first broken i didnt go to god right away. but i knew everything that was said had come true. eventually i did ask god into my life. is the best thing i have ever done. i can say though,when u don't follow his direction and rules,you will suffer lol. he gives u many chances too before the punishment. the great thing is we can ask for forgiveness sincerley in jesus name and he will grant it. it's a great thing to know unconditional love. you can get that only one place and is with god. god is love. god wont let u down. no matter how awesome and loyal a friend you might have or friends,they are human and can make mistakes and fail us. god doesn't do that!

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1 corinthians 6

Morality in Legal Matters

1When one of you has a complaint against another, does he dare to take the matter before those who are unrighteous and not before the saints? 2You know that the saints will rule the world, don't you? And if the world is going to be ruled by you, can't you handle insignificant cases? 3You know that we will rule angels, not to mention things in this life, don't you? 4So if you have cases dealing with this life, why do you appoint as judges people who have no standing in the church? 5I say this to make you feel ashamed. Has it come to this, that there is not one person among you who is wise enough to settle disagreements between brothers?[a] 6Instead, one brother goes to court against another brother, and before unbelieving judges,[b] at that! 7The very fact that you have lawsuits among yourselves is already a defeat for you. Why not rather just accept the wrong? Why not rather be cheated? 8Instead, you yourselves practice doing wrong and cheating others, and brothers at that!1

9You know that wicked people will not inherit the kingdom of God, don't you? Stop deceiving yourselves! Sexually immoral people, idolaters, adulterers, male prostitutes, homosexuals, 10thieves, greedy people, drunks, slanderers, and robbers will not inherit the kingdom of God. 11That is what some of you were! But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of our Lord Jesus the Messiah and by the Spirit of our God.

Morality in Sexual Matters

12Everything is permissible for me, but not everything is helpful. Everything is permissible for me, but I will not allow anything to control me. 13Food is for the stomach, and the stomach is for food, but God will make them both unnecessary. The body is not meant for sexual immorality but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body. 14God raised the Lord, and by his power he will also raise us.

15You know that your bodies belong to the Messiah, don't you? Should I take what belongs to the Messiah and unite them with a prostitute? Certainly not! 16You know that the person who unites himself with a prostitute becomes one body with her, don't you? For it is said, “The two will become one flesh.”[c] 17But the person who unites himself with the Lord becomes one spirit with him.

18Keep on running away from sexual immorality. Any other[d] sin that a person commits is outside his body, but the person who sins sexually sins against his own body. 19You know that your body is a sanctuary of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have received from God, don't you? You do not belong to yourselves, 20because you were bought for a price. Therefore, glorify God with your bodies.

dear god,
im asking that my dearest friend can find you again,that you will show her the direction with ur light. please love on her and her family. wrap your arms around her and her sons,show them your endless love and forgiveness and grace. please provide them with your guidance,security,clarity,compassion and love so they know what to do. please do it in such a way that they have no doubt about you. please shroud and protect them with you power,light and love. god, i will freely give my life as a lamb,a sacrifice like jesus did although i am not worthy or clean as he. if this is what it takes to free my dearest friend and her family that is my offer. the only thing  i ask and i know u will provide is that my family is protected when i'm gone and that one day you will guide them to you in the end. this is a scary thought for me god,but im willing to do so if that's what it takes to free my dearest friend and her family of destruction. i also will add that i wish for her and i to be one again one day,but also right in your eyes,however i understand that u may have other plans. i want to pray for her family,his family,my family,his family. for others around me and in the world who do not know you,that they may find you,that the ones who silently suffer will find you. i pray for people who need prayer,but dont know how, i pray for the people who need prayer that i dont even know. that all these people will feel your love and warmth as you wrap ur arms around them and that they will come to you. forgive me god for being a sinnner. thank you for this day and what u have done for me even though i dont deserve these loving things you provide. i am asking,stating and praying for all these things in jesus name... AMEN

i have offered my life to u before in the past my dear friend. i am now offering my life to god for you and your family.
that is the best i have to give. that's all i have left