eroticmemories's blog: "feelings"

i don't know how i feel about them... are they a threat to my current relationship? do they still have power over him? i am afraid that one of the many that he's had could just bat their lashes at him and he'll go... he's not so happy with me right now... i know that i have issues... lots and lots of issues... and i try not to let it get to me... i work so much and try and get all these hours at work so i can keep my mind of what i don't know.

i was just doing the usual thing at work... its another basketball game... i don't know. it was an easy smooth day so far... and i had filled up on food someone cared enough to get me. So i had a satisfied feeling... i had another hunger i needed to satisfy. and at work there are so many men that would make you drool... behind the stands, waiting in line, or just there for the game and beers with buddies... you have a lot to choose from... oh and one man in particular... (baby i've been drooling over him for years now- he doesn't know) what took me by surprise was that they were looking at me... jumping to do anything i asked... i do not fit the beautiful standards that they have here in america. so to have guys look at me with longing (or maybe i am imagining this) its a new feeling. i wish i had the confidence to talk to them i way i want to. dress in a way that they will want to... haha... enough for now. what will happen today i wonder?!?