i feel like my daughter hates me. for the past 2 years, I have moved from place to place every 4-6 months. For the the first 2 years of her life, I had an apartment of my own, then i couldnt afford the rent and had to move. she ended up having to live with her dad. (my daughter is 4 years old.) just recently she has been getting meaner and meaner towards me. especially after i explained (3 months ago) to her that i am moving out of state in a month, to find her older brother, (that she has never met, nor have i seen in 9 years, he is 10.) I only get to see her 10 hours a week, 3x a week. and it is hard on the both of us. Recently, when her father has been dropping her off to me for my visitaions, less that 5 minutes into her visit with me, she starts crying for her daddy, it hurts my feelings, and makes me cry, because my daughter means the world to me. I try everything in my power to make her happy when she is with me. I have begun to think that the reason she has become mean towards me, is due to the fact that i can not take her with me where i am going. it hurts me inside everyday, knowing that i can not take her with me. i wish i knew what to say to her, or what to do for her to help her understand, that she will be coming to visit me every summer for 3 months. I wish i didnt feel the pain that i feel when she treats me the way that she does. I feel like she has resentment towards me, i wish i knew how to make her pain go away! it hurts me every minute to know that she cries for her daddy, when she is with me. i have NEVER done anything wrong to her. thursday the 19th of feb, i had a visit with her, and she started the crying thing, and her daddy asked her if she wanted to stay and spend her visit with me, and she said no, and that she wanted to go with her daddy. I HURT! It hurt so bad that i got up off the couch and walked into another room and started to cry! i felt that my baby girl HATED ME! what in the world did i do to make her feel like she has to be so mean to me?
my kids are my only reason for living, but damn it! she makes me feel like i should just crawl into a 8 foot hole and bury myself in it!
