Now I am sitting back wondering just how much more I can take... my mind, my body, and my soul? How long will it take to get tired enough to say thats enough and leave and never look back. But I am tired, so tired that I dont even know how to try to get out. My life is turning into nothin... all the hard work seems like its for nothing. I have many friends who love me for who I am and that should be enough... but I feel so lonely! I feel like no one understands what I am going through or just doesnt care. I am so fuckin tired of explaining myself... giving reasons for the choices that I make and it shouldnt even matter. Where did I lose myself and become this other person? Was it when he hit me or was it when he beat my ass? I couldnt really say at this point but I do know that the woman you see today is not the woman I used to be. I am someone else and I want the old me back! I will be her again! The bitch who dont stand for shit! No man will ever do to me the things that have been done by another! But until I end it I will feel like this and I will feel so alone! I am tired, but when will I be tired enough to say thats enough?
